The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 56 but still not enough time! I'm going to work in a few hours... dang it! Had a powerful sexual dream today and in the dream I remembered I do NoFap so I stopped the beautiful sirens from doing things to me... In retrospect I don't know how to feel about that? it seems like it would've been a nice freebie.
I'm still keeping good but I am getting interferences for complete journaling. Oh well... Best I can do is Wish you, my brothers to always last one more day longer than today.

 

Checking in !
'Tips'+ followed:
1)Meditate-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower-done
5)Follow a trigger prevention plan-done
6)Get occupied.Work on your hobbies and dreams-done
7)Practice physical exercise-done
8)Eat healthy-done
9)Sleep well-done
10)NA-done
11)AEFF-fought irritation,impatience and contempt of misery while shopping today,as well as fears over exercising at certain point...if something happens it is for a reoason and there is gods will behind it which you better accept.
Guys from this day on I will treat empty Checks day ... or Day ... as a show of you indulging in the sin of Sloth and unwilling to share with brotherhood what good habits/deeds you did through the day to stay clean, aware and emotionally stable.No more likes for empty checks. And I encourage everybody to do the same.

 

PMO stops you from living your dreams,your beliefs.Because it turns you into cowards whose faith is dead because you are afraid ,powerless and braindead to do the deed your faith requires from you to be alive.
KEEP YOUR FAITH ALIVE !

 

Here's some music that you may or may not like. Feel free to play it while you cultivate better and healthier habits.

 

Day 1,

Strong day with a healthy run this morning. Wanted to test myself and ran 5 miles at a low-mid 7 minute pace (timing with an analog watch lol). Physical work and piano practice along with reading to bring me to this moment.

Thank you Fellowship for your unwavering support!

 

50 Dwarf

 

Day 170

Thank you brother.

 

Day 100!!!!!!
Haven't checked-in in a while due to travels, but I made it to three-digits!
Don't give up everyone, you got this! I've been stuck with porn for almost 20 years and I'm finally breaking free!
It's still a start and a long journey ahead but I'm not looking back and keep pushing forward. Thank you everyone on this site. You all have helped and seeking help also helped me so far. You got it, everyone, keep it up!

 

Checking in on Day 30, now an Elf.

 

Getting frustratingly repetitive with myself. I just relapsed again after 5 days clean. It started out with some stress from getting ready to move which led me to peek at some porn subs on youtube then some explicit material on reddit.

While I'm once again disappointed with myself, I have been making a little progress. Over the past 5 days I knocked out a few short term goals including meal prepping with healthy food, exercising regularly, finishing one the books I've been reading, and talking on the phone with a few friends and relatives. I relapsed because I didn't follow my rule of no phone use in my room with the door closed.

I need to find a balance between being too tough and too permissive. After a lot of my relapses in the past I would mentally kick myself and over-dwell on my failure. On the flipside, there have been a few relapses that I wouldn't see as a big deal and then proceed to binge. There's gotta be a way to move forward and forgive myself without becoming complacent.

In order to reach 30 days and beyond, I gotta let go of PMO. Here's to another clean week.

 

Day 130.

I have had some very strong urges this past week to throw everything away and sit in my room and indulge in PMO. It is very difficult to understand why this has come about again. Why? I have done vastly better mentally than I have done the first couple of years during my reboot. I completely forgot about this level of yearning. When it come about again I was taken by surprise. I can't believe it. I have had many moments that made me what I call "excited".

To by easily moved to "sexual excitement" just by seeing a woman is very disturbing. This is not what I ever believed to be "normal", I believe women are not here merely for entertainment, yet here I am not able to function fully. Yes, we all have a reproductive system and all that, but that shouldn't be the focus of anything at all. Yet, that is where my focus lies much of my time. As I have shared before, I just let those thoughts and feelings pass by like. I don't wrestle with them. Sometimes they get big but I just keep moving forward. At some point, my willpower becomes extremely weakened. There needs to be a deeper change. The change I need to make as not sunk into the core of my being. It is like I fear to lose who I am right now, for what I know I want to be.

I am still in the early stages of rebooting, I recognize this. Still I try my best to become a better individual.

More power to you, brotherhood!

 

Great, man!!

 

Day 10.
2021 Global Counter: Day 4/4

 

Checking in for day 5.
'Tips'+ followed:
1)Meditate- undone
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take a cold shower- undone
5)Follow a trigger prevention plan-done
6)Get occupied. Work on your hobbies and dreams-done
7)Practice physical exercise- undone
8)Eat healthy- undone
9)Sleep well-done
10)NA-done
I have finished some tasks that I needed to do for some time today. So I was occupied during the whole morning, then I went on for reading a novel I started yesterday. During the night time, I sat with my family, as we gathered for dinner. Had some urges before going to bed, but I just turned off my phone, the lights, and went to sleep.

 

Congratulations on the milestone!

 

14 days

 

Day 5 complete! On to Day 6; I'm an Uruk-Hai! I feel stronger and faster but I'm still a slave of porn evil. A desire arises to break free from its chains.

@Valier(|[{<=>}]|) I'm happy to see that you've stuck with it! 5 days is not a bad streak at all.

 

Day 1 again.
Somehow, the chaser effect got to me. I'm taking a few days off the group. Will keep accountability but avoid reading the posts for some time.
God bless us all

 

Damn back to 0

 

Hello friends ... I wish you a wonderful year, full of good things, freedom, happiness.

Today I return to this challenge after my fall on November 4 where 88 days disappeared, to this day I have not been able to overcome more than 15 days and I fall again, I have tried many things, not counting days, trying to see the PMO as something insignificant so that I do not have to return to it, but the outcome is always the same "relapse", it is something frustrating, sometimes I think that I will not be able to deal with this, sometimes I think that this is bigger than me. ..

Today I am sad, it hurts me to know that many of the people I was in this challenge with are still in less than 10 days clean, people who have been trying for a long time and still do not prosper, and it hurts because I can not do anything for them because at this moment I am in the same situation, what do we need? What things should we try new? God what needs to be done?

I love you all, I wish you the best in life, we are all great, we all deserve freedom, everyone deserves happiness!

Let's go friends

Day 0!