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Space Marine January - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by EndPornLiveLife, Dec 27, 2020.

You pledge loyalty to the...

Poll closed Jan 15, 2021.
  1. Space Wolves

    30.4%
  2. Black Templars

    30.4%
  3. Dark Angels

    13.0%
  4. Blood Angels

    26.1%
  1. Checking in.

    I waded into very dangerous waters this afternoon: I accidentally found my old twitter account in my old "naughty-use" email account. Very quickly I had searched a keyword and seen sexualised material (nothing nude but it was quickly going to go there). In a matter of seconds my cravings went from 5/100 - 50/100 and climbing. Thankfully I was able to put the handbrake on and close the window before I went any further. Literally gritting my teeth, turning away from the screen to switch out of the path I was on. I really didn't want to admit it on here - I think this is the closest I've gone to using porn on this streak. These "experiments", thinking "I wonder if anything would come up if I searched for..." are what have caused many relapses, on many different platforms. Until today I've been able to avoid even doing that on this streak. This was a stark reminder to stay away. Curiosity killed the cat.

    Oh @vicicool I still owe you an answer, but I'm going to put it off another day or two sorry. It's a good question for all of us and deserves a thoughtful answer!
     
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  2. I know I said I'd close the challenge today, but I have just messaged past members to see if anyone else is keen to join, so I'm giving them one more day. I've only contacted those who have not reset this month.

    Hey @Gonarth! Great to hear from you :)
    As for joining this month's challenge, I'd love to have you, but it wouldn't be right, or fair. You see, we've already had members reset this month, so to add you as a scoring member this month when you're in the same boat - it would be like giving a free pass to you individually. I hope you can understand. By all means hang around and join the chat though, and if you're keen at the end of the month we'll add you to the February challenge!

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    @Antimatteromega & @Sebbrix You've done well to get where you are, the time is not wasted. If you review your journal, your reasons for being here, it will help to not binge.
    Are you gonna join a short challenge in the meantime? I can join one with you if you'd like. If you need anything we're here.

    Good effort keeping clean @T0mCrus4der! How did you change your mindset?

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    @ToMMy.H Sounds like a good idea to do the 7 day challenge. That's what I had to do last time I was stuck (3 day actually, then 7, then 14...).
    Would it help to put a piece of paper under your pillow or on your bedhead which you could see when you go prone? It could have big lettering to show the choice that you have, saying something simple like:
    - "FEED MY DESIRE or FEED MY FUTURE?"
    - "WORN OUT PENIS OR WORKING PENIS?"
    Or whatever is catchy/meaningful to you?

    On my laptop I still have "What if?" written on a post-it note. For me, that's subtle enough that it's not a big deal if other people see it, and clear enough that I know what it's asking me. "What if I look at porn? What if I don't?"
     
  3. PanteriMauzer

    PanteriMauzer Fapstronaut

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    962
    93
    Joining Blood Angels ok?
     
  4. Antimatteromega

    Antimatteromega Fapstronaut

    84
    130
    33
    Hello
    I've started a 3 day challenge if you want to you can join.
     
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  5. Current team numbers (Closing challenge 6 January at 12pm UTC)
    Space Wolves (6/10 members)
    Black Templars (7/10 members)
    Dark Angels (6/10 members)
    Blood Angels (7/10 members)​

    @Plays88Keys let's see how this plays out. If the teams even out I can add you to Black Templars, otherwise I'll ask you to select a team that has less members.


    Certainly is! Welcome back to the challenge @PanteriMauzer :D

    Joined. Let's do this thang @Antimatteromega :cool:
     
    Last edited: Jan 5, 2021
  6. Newmanatee

    Newmanatee Fapstronaut

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    93
    Checking in for the Black Templars! I came dangerously close to what I would consider a reset today with a very brief visit to an anonymous chat site I used to use back in darker times. I was feeling super lonely and isolated for whatever reason today and my guard was down a little.

    Definitely not a full reset or anything like that and luckily nothing close to activating the old PMO neural pathways but an important reminder for everyone to stay vigilant even when you reach a long streak. I'm taking the positives from the experience today, that even at my weakest, the urge to continue using the site wasn't stronger than the voice in my head reminding me of why I'm doing this thing.
     
  7. Way to go saying no, and yeah, we all need those reminders hey...
     
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  8. @EndPornLiveLife Previously, I think the challenge was open to anyone before a certain date say the 5th day of the month even with a counter of zero unless I am mistaken. Otherwise, I will join the 21-day challenge and await the Feb challenge.
     
  9. Check in!!:):) late i know but it is ti for the blood angels.
     
  10. Caged_bird

    Caged_bird Fapstronaut

    Thank you so much.. For this motivation..
    It us kinda expected during first few weeks of the streak..
    I think I will b quite fine after 40 days I guess..

    Right now I need to avoid external stressors as much as I can
     
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  11. Checking in for the Black Templars!

    What are the weapons we're going to pick up for this fight? One for me is the conviction that I will not continue to abuse myself and others through PMO habits.
     
  12. Mya

    Mya Fapstronaut
    NoFap Defender

    95
    440
    53
    Month 0/12.

    It was full moon so the urges are strong. But holding ground.

    My fellow wolves brothers, let us keep our formations.

    One falls we all fail.

    One succeeds we all share and rejoice in his success.

    We will tire out our prey with Allah's mercy and might. By God we will.
     
  13. Check in day 6
    I'll write about my strategies when I'll find the time to do so. But thanks for your intrest^^
     
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  14. ToMMy.H

    ToMMy.H Fapstronaut

    @EndPornLiveLife Thank you for your suggestion. Its really good! I thought about writing down the reasons why I should do NOFAP and put it on my bed so I see it everytime its the most critical moment.

    Today I go completely lost in my work. Great feeling. Thinking only about things that do the difference instead of having random thoughts, usually around sex, is amazing feeling. This is my new goal now. Everyday get better a) as human b) in my work. Get busy = getting free of shit thoughts that dont matter in long run. Lets see how long I can do it like this. Hopefully its not just a big hit of motivation and after 2days I am here again, writing my relapse post.
     
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  15. I love these metaphors @Mya!

    As @Primaris said, yeah the req was to have not reset this month. Good call with the 21 Day challenge. Btw I've joined the 3 day challenge with @Antimatteromega, feel free to join us as we start small and go for bigger challenges (although you'll prob just smash out the 21 day anyway ;) ). Or hang around here, or both.

    Yep, do what you've gotta do. Less stress, and doing something which you're passionate about or that gives you joy :)

    One for me is monitoring my mental health: learning when to push myself, and when to relax or do something healthy to relieve stress.

    Another is that if I am:
    Hungry
    Angry
    Lonely
    Tired
    Then I HALT, and stay off my devices, especially if I'm alone.
     
  16. Okay I've added the last couple of users and closed the challenge. We now have seven members in each team.

    May the best team win, and may every Space Marine be sharper at the end, having grown in self-awareness, compassion, strength and discipline.


    Added. Welcome back to the wolf pack @Chakra_Serpent!
    May you grow stronger, roaming and being masters of the land with @Mya and the the rest of the wolves.


    @Plays88Keys I couldn't add you to your preferred team, as it would have given them two more members than the smallest team. I've put you in Dark Angels, and now all teams have the same number. I hope this is okay. May you and your fellow Dark Angels play the 88 keys of victory this month...
     
  17. Newmanatee

    Newmanatee Fapstronaut

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    Checking in for the Black Templars! Trying to post here more than I did last month cause it helped me massively in November and I'm definitely feeling the burn right now! HALT is an acronym to live by. Every single one of us recognises when we're searching for that PMO release because we know what's caused it, feelings within us that we don't want to deal with. Stay away from your devices, stay away from browsing, remind yourself of why you're doing this thing.
     
  18. CHECK IN!!! HAAAHH. CRAVING YOU CANT BEAT ME:mad::mad:. I WILL FIGHT TO DEATH.:emoji_angry::emoji_angry::emoji_angry::emoji_angry:
     

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