The Lord of the Rings Challenge

2 days done. I'm going to keep fighting against PMO. But I'm going to start focusing more on defeating P the most for the time being.

 

Day 13 :

Feeling good, little bit sad but it's okay.
I have been doing breathing exercises for couple of days.. And i was having a long depressive spell due to which I was not able to post any thing on my journal etc etc.. I wasn't even able to reply to msg but thank God I think I am out of that stagnant phase... Time to never look back

Good news I am studying after a long spell of procrastinating.. And that is great news from someone who has not opened a book for a year...almost..

 

Day 92 complete. Forgot to update this yesterday!

Day 91 complete

After carefully studying the Gate I decide is too dangerous to charge it full front. The fallen brother Gollum reveals there´s a secret entrance to Mordor. With a sigh of relief I turn south. My path now follows the borders of Ephel Dúath, the Mountains of Shadow.

 

Day 36. I am under a ton of stress this week and my urges have been strong. I am going to need to be extra diligent in the coming days. After the weekend my schedule will get back to normal.

 

Day 261.

 

Day 7. God Bless you all ¡¡

 

Day 6 and I am now an Uruk-Hai again. I've done a lot of soul searching in my hiatus from this forum. Largely driven by the large shift in my life brought up by the forceful change of lifestyle that covid caused in all our lives. From one day to the next, in late March last year, my life collapsed into 25% of what it used to be. I had it quite well, and as a result I went from king of the mountain to a lifestyle only worthy to a basement dwelling neckbeard. I'm basically a different man once again. In this time, I've learned a lot about myself and developed strengths deep inside myself that I didn't know were there. My last transgression of NoFap, 6 days ago, was an almost controlled and premeditated one. A taste of what I left behind to understand how long I've come so far. We're all doing this in very unfavourable circumstances because of Covid, lads. If you can do it now, nothing will stand in your way ever again. This is as troublesome as it gets. Keep up the grind.

 

Checking in for day 40!

The past 3 days have been quite difficult, I got into a non productive slump which caused me to feel angry/frustrated and therefor to look for ways to indulge in escapism. I thankfully was able to keep it contained to just browsing reddit and youtube, but I did catch myself fishing and even went so far as to peek at the main page of a P site.
Luckily I took back control and today and onward I'm going to be force some productivity (I've only really felt the urges when i'm procrastinating), and i'l be more on guard regarding this trigger of mine.

 

Checking in on Day 38.

 

Checking in for another day.

Yesterday, I let a lot of fear into my attitude and it did not serve me well, especially in interactions with my wife. I've let fear run a lot of my life, so much so that it's proven difficult for me to recognize it still. I've had recurring dreams where I'm running from something for as long as I can remember. I've sought external validation so much over my life, to the point where I think I've worked subtle manipulation into my personality. At times in this recovery process I've felt lost. I have committed to so much and so many people already, that at times the fear that I've already lost control over my life gets the better of me. I have to constantly remind myself that I am always responsible for myself. The past few weeks I've finally felt like I've been true to myself for the first time. I'm thankful for each opportunity to continue to grow and show love.

 

Day 6, work time....hopefully I am not as tired today because I am a Uruk now

 

Day 32 ( I'm a elf now)
So I'm trynig so hard to study well and my school will open in 3 days (16/1) it's been closed due COVID-19 and I'm trying to study before it opens sorry for not cheking in it's been 8 days i was focused on my subjects especially (MATH and BIOLOGY)
my mind tried to drown me into porn videos and stuff but i stood up against it
I told myself that i would let NOFAP and myself down and this great {LORD OF THE RINGS CHALLENGE}
hope everyone have a great time

 

day 2!
and I'm happier already!

 

5 days

 

Wow brother,that was deep,great and honest !!! Great days account !

 

Hey brother I can tell the effect, of staying longer without PMO, it is removing of your brakes of fear and 'what other will say about this?, worrying for you to act on your dreams and inspirations despite of them all.

 

Checking in, 13 days clean.
Been feeling under the weather lately but nonetheless I haven't given up.

@RiseToGreatness I am currently reading the Easy_Peasy_Method. Cheers!!