Accountability for All

Completing day 5 here and just started a self-talk meditation ritual. I've done this in the past and it is so good... if anyone is curious about it, it's on the Reboot Regimen ebook from Mark Queppet... it really helps.

 

Congrats man, don't get discouraged. Maybe this depression is part of withdrawal, maybe you're lacking on taking care of yourself (going to bed earlier, exercising even if lightly like taking a walk or eating healthier) or maybe both. Sometimes i get it too.

 

anyone having that instant urges that hit after around 2 hours of falling asleep?? I don't get them on daily basis but I had them several times during my journey

 

yesss i do.
and here i thought i was going through something abnormal.
they usually lead to nightfalls but cant really help em..

 

Good to know that someone is going through the same , Carryon bro .

 

ROLLCALL
how is everyone doing?? everyone staying on their streaks?
ive been out of town but im going strong still. ive been flatlined these last couple days and good grief it feels like im trying to run through mud. i feel hyper yet drained, tempted yet not tempted. such a weird time.
but hey its my fault for doing this to my poor little brain

 

Yooo, i'm doing alright today (day 8), appreciate you checking, and glad to know that you're going strong. Flatline is so normal for me since the beginning of a streak that i barely notice it lol

Take care bro! Try drinking some lemongrass tea before going to bed, and always sleeping and waking up at the same times in case you're not. This helps me quite a bit, but i still suffer from erratic sleep for a while as well.

 

doing good bro!

keep going! you're doing good!
how much do you sleep in a day? atleast 8 hours? or less?
go see a doc if you think this is a serious problem.

 

oh damn.
see a doc i'd say but its your call.

be occupied somehow.. best way to deal w/ urges.. fill that void.

 

i feel ya man, i havent been sleeping during flatline. last night i had a porn nightmare? like i dreamed i was watching myself watch porn and i was sick when i woke up at 3am and couldnt go back to sleep. i hope this doesn’t become an every night thing

 

lol get used to it.

ive had 6-7 such nightmares.
i either dream that i'm fucking someone, or i dream that i am watching porn.
the latter one is damn scary.. i always think that ive relapsed but in reality i havent..
either ways, i suddenly wake up and my sleep is disrupted..
i dont have much trouble going back to sleep tho.

 

thanks for the reply, so glad im not the only one. addiction loves to make you feel like you’re the only one and shameful so its nice to know someone else has these dreams

 

i saw some erotic non nude imagery and ive been very very careful for weeks to absolutely avoid anything stimulating (im doing hard mode) i was scrolling through social media like a dummy and when i saw the image i got THE BIGGEST head rush. it felt like i just peaked on adderall which ive used a ton, except stronger if you can imagine.


i immediately deleted the app before i even had a chance to feel it brewing in my balls and wrote this paragraph as an admission of my idiotic move on social media and to make sure i fully acknowledge the steps i took and be accountable to everyone i can be


i cant say i almost relapsed cause i was more SCARED than anything


I CANT BELIEVE I USED TO DO THIS MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY OH MY GOD.

 

lol same here. I've also heard similar stories from ex weed and cigarette smokers -- they thought that they were in fact smoking irl.

I used to let such situations really drag me down and make me wonder whether i should reset or not, but most often i would just use it as justification for a real relapse. The way i think about this now? Reboot will never be as smooth as we want it to be, so as long as you're not systematically peeking, it's fine. Of course, avoid aimlessly browsing through social media and the web in general as much as possible.

 

justification for a relapse I can see that being a huge possibility. thank you for bringing that up cause i can feel my brain doing that

 

You got this man!