[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 4
Day 4 No Caffeine, Cacao, Sugar, black tea, Pepper
Day 4 No privacy

 

Day 21 - I like that number!



I see less and less people every day between my posts - sad to see, but let that be motivation for all you still here! This is hard but you are strong! Stick with it!

 

37 days done...keep going

 

Hello everyone Updating after a long time it’s been hard to handle stuff but somehow managed inching towards 3rd month of my streak hope everything will went well i saw a triggering thing today and for 5 min i lost control but thank god i managed and just close that thing and updating here all the best guys for your fight

 

Day 17, 18 and 19 done team.

 

Day 18/90

A little foggy and had some urges, but I’m feeling pretty good.

 

Yesterday was a BIIIIG relapse, so today is my first day aiming to be clean.
I have written a new word document entitled "AGP Management Plan" which are 3 columns listed below.

My main difference is that I have put some "MO" behaviours in the Amber section... I aim to go for complete sobriety for 90 days, if that is not possible, I have allowed myself a get-out, only as long as I don't look at P. The idea being that I disassociate P from MO activity. I will reassess this as time goes by.

I am accepting that I will never be cured of AGP - it is part and parcel of who I am - but I am starting on the journey towards 90 days so I can reacquaint myself with the strategies and tactics of managing it.

I have also decided that it is not feasible for me to work as much as I have done, so instead of working two 14 hour days in a row... I will work 1 14 hour day, and then an early shift so that I can at least have some time to rest, relax and recuperate between shifts.

I may write a separate section about AGP, how it has affected me, my thoughts and feelings around it and my journey to manage it... Now I know what it is I am dealing with.

Today I am particularly vulnerable to follow up acting out, because my Frontal Lobes have become regressed, and I didn't sleep well.
I'm off for a walk now to clear my head, then I'll have a wash when I get back.
I will then implement more P Blockers on my PC - this devil is still inside of me, let god's light expose him and vanquish his imaginary power over me.

I keep trying to add more to this list, but for now I must stop - perfectionism is another of my enemies...

GREEN Behaviours - Creating
Meditation
Learn & Practice Self Control, Emotional Regulation
Being Honest
Doing Todo’s
Learning Python / GIT
Programming Python / Pod
Going for a Walk
Having a Wash
Reading AA Book
Speaking to Addicts
Helping Addicts
Eating Healthily
Taking Vitamins

AMBER Behaviours - Consuming
Viewing TAS / Games on Youtube
Being Dishonest
AGP w/o P (MO)
Buying AGP Props

RED Behaviours
AGP w/ P
PMO

 

34/90.

 

Day 9!

 

Day 34/90!

I am on my best streak since early 2020!

Btw I think im on a flatline right now. I have like really little desire towards

women. Is that okay to feel this way?

I wonder what you guys know about this or did you have similar feelings?

 

Day 02,
A tip for you all, its a lot easier to do if you cut easy accses to porn: install some kind of siteblocker, or if you wotch it in incognito mode, get rid of incognito (it can be done trust me)
Cheers!

 

Don’t worry, it’s all good, it’ll change.

 

Day 15 ✔.
Very burdensome days...

 

Day 0.

 

Day 35

 

Day 32! Really want to make it to 90 days and beyond. Been having less and less lustful thoughts as the days progress. Loving the person I'm becoming. Let's keep going y'all!

 

I slipped....again. but I'm back.....again. day 0

 

Day 21/90 feeling good!

 

I went off both caffeine and alcohol for a really long time to help my anxiety, and I really felt pretty good after a while. If you're trying to stay off caffeine, I think it'll really help you!

 

I've been struggling, too, but we're still here. Don't get overwhelmed by defeating this addiction in one day. Take one little bit by one little bit.