The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Of course an explicit picture that you received is not a a relapse or worthy of a reset, as you have not searched for it in the hopes of lying to yourself that you need to see a naked woman/man (whatever turns your crank man). Explicit pictures will appear from now and then as with today's environment is hard to navigate, without seeing something sexual.
What is important here is to act in the right way about it, and I am glad to see that you did so. The more you stay on this road, you will notice that these unwanted situations will happen less and less and your thoughts about how you feel will be healthier and healthier, prouder and prouder.

 

To quote the words of my work-out app that quotes Henry Ford's words whitout giving him credit: "Progress is progress no matter how small."

 

Be very careful my brother, I recommend ending this habit that you are beginning to establish without noticing. Like, every time you are getting into this physical connection do a cold shower or change your activity completely.
Why?
I had a little situation like yours. I was going pretty strong and confident with my streak, even had a girl for a while so I did O, but no P or M. One or two weeks after that, I decided I will continue No PM and O until the 90 days streak. And it started as you said... "started fishing on social media", then wondering if it is considered a relapse. I rationalized that it's not (which it isn't, until it is, I will go onto more detail at the end), and by the way things were going, I was confident that I can just maintain myself the rest of streak. What I haven't noticed though , was the fact that I began repeating this behavior (same as it happens with porn). I controlled myself today and 2 days from now I got into it again, and then the next day and then again 2 days pause. (I'm not completely sure how much time I've done this, One week maybe, but for sure not I didn't reach 2 weeks).
I felt it under control, getting close and always stopping and heading onto doing other stuff that were actually productive thinking/"knowing" that "now that I have done this, my body/mind/self has no more reason to be distracted as I was kind to it, and provided it a little pleasure that should allow me to continue my day.
I was keeping it very light, with "Instagram Models(that have personal blog in description)", but the vanilla type: Not really naked, but with the shapes at display. And as I was doing this, in came a new post (from a certain one that I was following because of the nice shapes but vanilla style butt pics), with the position, the angles and shapes and lights all aggressively captured my attention and it distracted my mind and body for a couple of seconds. It was enough.
Now keep in mind, that when you practice edging, a fraction of a second of distraction is the difference between Edging and O. And with practicing edging more than once, you are bound to get distracted and sludgy by the very act of repletion without even counting any other thought or distraction that might apply to you.
I found my progress gone to dust after a 85 day streak. (I would've allowed myself to do whatever I wanted at day 91).
6 More days I couldn't keep it together, and of course I it didn't stop there. A 2 day binge followed because "I wrecked it and I should at least enjoy it". That journey has not been unfruitful though, I forfeited those 2 days and forgave myself and set on the journey again, with my attention heightened on situations that might appear. It was also at that time that I have joined this forum to keep myself motivated and aware of possible impediments that might appear that could lead to a relapse.
Long story short, ask yourself this: "Can't I find nothing better to do with this time period (time which you are using for Edging), that I can actually be proud of spending?"

I hope my story finds you well and provides you with more clarity on your journey and goals.
Sincerely yours,
Prophet Moonstruck.

 

Day 9
The last couple of days were very testing. I felt that my testicles are full and something wanted to get out of my body. To be honest, I decided to watch p a couple minutes ago. "Hey, you were doing great! You've reached 8 days! But now it's time to celebrate!" my mind said. However, it was not me. It was like I was controlled by the addicted side of me which convinced me to watch p for a couple of minutes, then I came back and I said to myself "Hey! Remember we(my body and my mind) are committed not to watch p again! Forget all the things you have said before and focus on your challenge!" It was me. I'm glad that I did not watch p.
It is this easy, my friends. Just in a second, you can decide to watch p and embrace your addiction once again. You need to think the consequences your actions you are about to do. I think this is true for the every aspect of life I wish you all a great day!

 

Day 46. Over the hump. Feeling a little off this morning. Spent too much time in bed fantasizing about a hot girl I saw when I was out for a run. Its so difficult for me to get out of bed when my alarm goes off. I am going to strive to be better about this.

 

Day 0

 

Thank you brother, it was interesting to hear your story, and I recognised a lot of similarities with my own experiences. I too have also failed previous streaks as a result of edging - although in those circumstances once I began, I passed the barrier and ended up relapsing.

I also find myself asking ‘could I not do anything better with my time?’ when I feel the urge to edge, but have stupidly decided in the past that I couldn’t! I find it reassuring hearing your story, but I feel a whole lot better today than I did yesterday - I believe I have finally reached a turning point where I am so sick of P and abusing MO that my conscience is finally kicking in. I recognise the trap that edging represents, and I am convicted not to indulge myself momentarily when I know I’ll either be disappointed in myself or end up relapsing!

 

Day 271.

 

Hi lads check out this video on career and happiness !
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Got drunk last night for fun, ended up relapsing. Guess I’ll have to cut out alcohol on my journey too. Stay strong everyone

 

Day 16 trod on

 

I love this @RiseToGreatness. I do feel lethargic for the rest of the day when I hit snooze. I love the idea of "rising slowly". I am going to try this tomorrow morning.

 

Nice to be a hobbit again. Still feeling tempted to relapse though. One day at a time. Or ten minutes at a time if necessary