Waking up

Had a dream about my ex girlfriend last night, and it felt so real. I was walking with her by Folsom lake, which is in Northern California. Folsom is her hometown, and it was a great day spent with her.

We broke up mutually once the quarantine started, mostly because she had a hard time being away from me. Or maybe it was something else. At first I was somewhat relieved.

But now the guilt is killing me. The guilt that she knew about my PMO addiction. How she expressed to me that porn makes her feel like I am cheating on her. The guilt of how defensive I got about it. "How could she say such a thing, and make me feel so bad about something so normal?!?!"

Now I see, if only I was empathetic towards her feelings.

Anyway, I'm going back to work.

 

Thank you for your words. I appreciate it.