hi 35 y/o newbie

Hi everyone, nice to meet you all. I am 35 years old male.
Today while surfing on the internet I found this amazing community which I really think can overcome my addiction from Porn and masturbation. The articles given in this website have some very good information. I am suffering from this from almost 15 years may be more now. I tried number of ways to quit but all in vain till now.
I believe that this is the main cause of having my low self esteem. Whenever I try to build my self confidence one relapse kills it all. But I want to give one more try and will keep on trying till I completely overcomes it.
I have created below strategy this time and will start with 30 day challenge.

• No phone or Laptop after 9 PM. I have found that whenever I am working on laptop alone in night it takes just few seconds for me to relapse. So no phone and laptop after 9 PM
• Whenever there is urge do 5-10 pushups and calm myself.
• Limit the time I spend on Facebook. Just 5 mins per day. No instagram at all.
• No online web series from Netflix on any other OTT.
• Try to understand the science behind this addiction.
• keep a watch on my awareness whenever it drifts away try to bring it back to my goal calmly and politely.

I know this journey is not going to be easy but I am determined to succeed. Wish me luck guys and also will need help from all of you to achieve my goal.

 

Thanks KammaSati for your encouraging words. Looking forward to come out from this nightmare and enjoy my life

 

Completed my first day. Was in full control today. Did not let my awareness to drift away in that direction. No phone and laptop after 9 PM is really helpful. I don't want to work alone in my laptop at night. Weekdays are easy. It's the weekends when I need to be very careful.

 

Completed my 2nd day. Going great. Have to be very careful during weekends.

 

Thanks Kamal for your response. Plz let me know any tips to avoid weekend trap. I have created a strong statement in notes app of my mobile which reminds me the hell i go thorough if I give up. I read it as many times as possible. It's really helping. Yeah completed my day 3.

 

Thanks for your comment. That's really a great advise. So while reading my strong statement it's kind of also realises me that what I am missing in my life. But yeah I will also have a positive statement of what I will achieve after overcoming this. Thanks really for your valuable advise.

 

To keep yourself busy is very important here. I have found that earlier when I don't have anything to do over weekends I easily give up. But I have learnt this lesson now. Also very good point regarding learning how brain works. I will surely read about it.
I am really liking this community thanks again for your help and sharing your experiences

 

Well it's a weekend and I was almost about to fail. I came to my room where there in no one started working on my laptop and immediately started looking at P. This is against the rule I have set for myself. No laptop/phone after 9 PM. Though after watching for some minutes I was able to control my urges and started reading the PDF which I have got from Nofap over the email. It really helped me a lot to gain my control back. And made change to my rule that instead of 9 PM, I will not be watching laptop after 8 PM. Important point from that guide is take one day at a time. Rather than thinking about your challenge for so many days just take each day separately and try to follow the rules for that day and repeat. I will get success.

 

Not able to control my urge if I am sitting infront of my laptop after 8 PM. Again watched P for few mins then diverted my mind. But some damage is already done though not complete. This my weakest link and really vulnerable at this time. Not sure what can be done. Why I easily switch my Browser to private mode?? Plz I want to get out from it. No laptop after 8 PM

 

I have to reset my counter after 14 days. Really going from that bad useless feeling. It's a trap, a cycle never ending. But I will start again today. Will follow the plan I have made for myself. My vulnerability is alone with laptop. I have made a point not to be sitting alone after 8 PM but still some days cannot control. Not sure how to control the urge. I also know If i do it for 3-4 weeks I will be able to control this urge. But point is how to control in that moment. I will try the technique of counting till 6 and then reverse and visualising the numbers.Hoping to put all this behind this time