No Porn 2021 Challenge [CLOSED]

How is everyone doing? I just recently hit 70+ days free from porn, but reset my counter as I relapsed with M., and I am trying to abstain from M. and treating it just the same as I do P. - I also lusted, saw some girls, triggering images during that day, etc. - and so even though I didn't look up porn I still see it as a relapse.
I'm doing okay though and looking forward and hoping to live the rest of this life porn free!

 

I'm just happy you see it as it is, just a glitch on the road. You might lost this battle, but you're about to win this war. Keep going, man! Your results have been impressive so far!

 

So I’ve relapsed. Life tested and retested then tested me some more from Dec to now. And today I just said it’s whatever. To all that continue, Godspeed.

 

Can you explain what happened for us?

 

Check in. Everything going great so far. No P since almost a month and no M since my last reset. Happy that 2021 is still porn free.

 

Don't give up or let yourself be weighed down by your mistakes bro! Life is too short to not strive to live the best lives we can

 

Unfortunately, I have to reset because of M last night. I am still going strong against P but M seems to be a big issue for me right now. The problem is that M will one day lead me to P again , that is part of the reason why I need to stop M as well. Anyway, still happy that it's been a month since P. Will try my best to make this the last time for M as well.

 

i want to forget P completely. i have tried different challenges but even those that i have succeeded have involved holding out after watching P. Over 10 years of watching P is a very bad shameful record that i wanna do away with Hopefully its not too late and i can make a difference this year.

 

Once in a while check in

 

After a horrible day at work yesterday, I almost relapsed. In fact, I would have relapsed, if I had the ability to. I got into my car, drove off to get that fucking password to my router to access porn. 30 minutes into what would have been a 6 hour travel just to access porn from my computer, I realized this was stupid and unneccessary, so I drove back home and punched the shit out of my punching bag, had a phone call with a friend and went to sleep peacefully. My strategy works.

Still doin' that shit André? Oh for sure!!!!

 

Day 0

 

That's a great technique. Your technique reminds me that sometimes I wish I was born in the time when internet did not exist. That way I would never have had this addiction since it wouldn't be accessible. Your technique of completely cutting off access is the only effective technique I have seen so far. Keep going bro. It will get easier with time.

 

I have been having really strong urges since yesterday. Somehow I have managed to get this far but I have thought of relapsing a hundred times in these past two days. These have been the hardest days of 2021 so far for me. However I am happy that I have still not relapsed. And I am hopeful that I will not . 2021 is still porn free but this time I won't do M either.

 

Exactly, this is the message I try to spread - I don't succeed because of my superhuman abilities, I succeed because I set up my environment in a slighty more natural way, which allows me to succeed with the little bit of discipline I have left. And now that discipline grows, I actually do become better, I actually do feel better.

I just watched an episode of suits, season 2, ep. 10, where Mike Ross loses his grandma, and then falls back into old patterns and smokes weed. I got angry at the guy, like what the hell are you doing, you don't need that shit, you're better than this. Then I realized we're all just humans, and sometimes destiny hits you. You need to be prepared for the impact, because it will come.

I realized that at this point, a horrible day at work is enough for me to crumble. Which means I have to pay more attention to my emotions, and let myself feel them, instead of running away from them, right into self destructing behaviour. I was scared, I was depressed, I was frustrated - and that is OK. It is ok to feel these feelings, there is no need to numb it down with a quick-fix drug. Porn has been my drug for years, and I finally break free from this spell.

People, set yourself up for success, do, what is neccessary to win this.

 

Day 1

 

Check in day 33

 

Hey fellows! With deep regret, I have to write that I have relapsed and have failed this challenge. I knew it was going to end up this way when I was struggling with MO without P. Sooner or later, this had to come. I will join in April but I wanna make sure I dont relapse again before then. Also I need to avoid the chaser effect right now.