The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 1.
The very air I breathe is a poisonous fume.

 

Checking in on Day 61.

 

Day 59. I have recently learned about PAWS and it seems that I may be experiencing something similar. I have been experiencing waves of anxiety, especially in social settings, over the last couple of days and have had to be more diligent than usual about staying active and not fantasizing. These emotions seem to come at random as overall I am feeling really positive about my life and the direction I am heading. It has been a struggle to deal with these emotions and I hope that with time I will return to a consistent mood.

 

Actually that's what we are doing by replacing PMO with 'tips' because there is no emptiness in nature - if you don't fill your time by your own choice, your environment and old habits will do it for for you by default and if you persist long enough in exercising you own choice it gonna become a healthy habit or as you refer to it positive addiction,although I thing the world addiction is a bit irrelevant in this combo as it implies harmful deeply entrenched habit.
p.s. This I heard long time ago and it makes sense-to develop one of your skills to perfection! This ain't easy by any means though.

 

Day 115 complete. Spending a lot of the day alone today. My son will be with me but he'll be all over the place playing at the grandparents house. Praying for strength and the awareness to know when my triggers are trying to hit me.

 

Day 15. Finally a hobbit¡¡ hehe its an small victory in this battle but each victory its an encourage to keep going until the end

 

Day 42 check in. Fighting my way to Moria.

 

Nice little meditations! Tried them both - Tara Brach feels better !

 

Checking in on day 18! I am just crossing the Brandywine River.

 

Thanks @RiseToGreatness !! I am going to give these a try

 

7. day check in

 

Yes, I am enjoying this role play!

 

Day 5 Check in!

Last day as a Orc!

 

Day 21 Checking in!

 

Day 88! My keyboard's battery is low yet I won't let that stop me from doing an update.
In the past 2 days I've removed most of the instagram girls I was following, since I plan on using Instagram for an older project I put on hold, probably due to the fact that I started throwing my energy into a relationship at that time and wasted the remaining energy on working and smoking. Smoking, which will represent the next step in my journey.
Now, unfollowing all the wenches was pretty easy with the feature that allow an user to unfollow related accounts... But I noticed a small hesitance inside! I tried to watch the thoughts materializing inside my head (thanks to meditation practice this whole time) as it was going on. "I won't be able to see hot girls anymore!" and "What if they post a really hot picture and I've done my reboot?" and other simp thoughts life that. But it was amazing how simple it was to unfollow them as I meditated to myself "How beautiful would the timeline look, knowing that I will only see things that are in my interest, that my intellectual capacity won't be highjacked or drained the aggressive posting of girl pics by dudes that have no other means of producing money.
I imagine this as the following scenario:
Let's say You visit a city... You have your friends there, you have events and people doing joking or doing a multitude of things... And as you are walking through the city, admiring the views and what's going on... until you reach a part of the town where you start seeing barely naked women and the further you go into that direction more and more of these women appear... By this time, you realize that you are in the infamous part of the town where money is everything and everyone can be bought... The part of town where you live from one day to another, the place where everything seems fun but only for a day... for if you see that happening every day you would be inclined to believe that those people are on the edge of insanity.
So I asked myself this question... "What do you want to see? What connections do you want to make?". Having had my fair share of moving and explorations it was an easy answer... But for some of you, who hadn't had any tampering with the dark/hidden and hidden parts of towns/groups... I can tell you that no futures are created there only constant debt (and the debt is not just monetary, but internal also).
Anyway! I must remember to buy batteries tomorrow for today I'm keeping it chill before the great day of tomorrow in which opportunity lies!
Have a great night!