Space Marine February - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

This came at the right time for me today, an hour after I relapsed, it's a great reminder of just how tough this battle is. We're so hard on ourselves and that's a good thing in many ways, we should be fanatical in stopping this thing, but it's important to remember that battles are always happening and that relapses and failures along the way DO NOT DEFINE THE REST OF THE WAR. It's been a tough 2021 so far on the NoFap front and part of it is not being rigorous enough with posting here. I'm going to do better and get back into a healthy mindset.

 

Checking in for Blood Angels.

 

A quality time with your gf huh. Noice. Well that is a good thing your PIED is almost cured. Aim for 100% in march.

Damn a leader figure has fallen. Dont worry we can bring it home in march challenge.
Yeah till then joining small 3-7 days challenges can help in preparation for a bigger battle.

Another person with a date huh. You guys are more experienced than me in NoFap. I can only say keeping yourself busy will help. Urges hit in freetime.dont let the chaser effect get to you.

Also I am thinking, am I the only loner guy in here?

Yupp this battle is hard. The mess we are in is created by us only, and only we are supposed to get ourselves out of this mess.

Best of luck for remaining surviving marines. We can power through the remaining days.

 

Today! The urges hit me really hard. ( Please read it! it's a serious concern)

The "Void" is my " school-mates and school-teachers", i.e. the triggers which cause the urge to relapse.
My classmates always come to me and Urge me to think about Porn. They come near me imitating the action of Masturbation and sex. I always close my eyes but the voices manage to reach me. They Disturb me whenever I try to concentrate on my studies(as I wanna become a physicist). Though, these 'class-mates' are the people with whom I was friends when I was a fapper and a hopeless kid( didn't know what to do in life). And, now I became the second-most top student in the class In overall personality. So, they teases me they distract me from studying. They ask to me to come back to my previous self. They are currently in 'The state' and think of that state as, The best. In school, I was very pissed off about that. They live in a confined space where sex, porn, games (The State) are everything; for them, it is like 'the best life.
And they want me too, to enjoy that life. and because of that-----
------I was nearly on the brink of relapse. Was not able to concentrate on my learning because of the deceptive messages induced by those people in the school. But watched some "I am Lucid" videos and some others to get to the track but it didn't have that much effect. Then I Pressed "The Panic" button and got a motivation video there. It made me cry and saved me from relapse. Thanks to that I was able to maintain my streak but I know that these are temporary Life-Savers. The real lifesaver is the mind itself. So I am planning to train my brain through meditation which I usually do for 20 minutes. But I'll extend it to 45 minutes and practice truly.

For the School-shit thing---->
1. Break all the friendships with them. Though it will lead to no friends in school. But in essence, You People are here.
2. If they try to do some bad things, seriously report to the teacher, first giving them a warning.
3. If they say something to me from a distance then I will simply block my ears.
4. Go to school in time periods. As all the syllabus is complete and the school is calling just for doing shit in school.
5. Train Hard and hard to cope with the deceptive brain messages, so that even if a tough situation arises; I should be able to persevere through it.

 

Yeah! It will be an epic one. I am training hard for it, i.e mentally, Physically, and spiritually.

 

Checking in, Day 17/28, Space Wolves.

 

Thank you so much.

Also check in for the black templars.

 

I'm Plays88Keys.

 

Hey. Been dealing with a loss of power and internet the last couple of days but just wanted to say hello.

 

Reporting for the Space Wolves. Life is so good and sweet at the moment!

 

Checking in for the Black Templars!

Today in the Roman Catholic calendar (and I assume for various Protestant denominations as well) we celebrate Ash Wednesday. This begins the 40-day period of solemnity and mortification leading up to the passion and death of Jesus just before Easter. "Remember you are dust, and to dust you shall return," we remind ourselves. This kind of asceticism and self-discipline goes along perfectly with NoFap: it's a time to break ourselves down and build ourselves back up again. Praying for each of you!

@Rokudaime Don't worry, man, you're not alone. I am not pursuing any sort of relationship at this time in my life. I used to spend so much time fretting about not having a gf, thinking something was wrong with me, and wanting to do anything I could just to check that box. Not worth it. I'm happy to chat about it if you like!

 

Checking in for the Black Templars. Been doing very well this month. Ready for the Deathwatch.

@Sebbrix I'm living in South Korea.

 

Checking in for the Blood Angels, day 18!

Awesome that we have such a spread out group! Is anyone from Africa or South America? Then we'd have every continent represented in this one little challenge!

 

Well, Am from Africa right at the equator

 

Ignore the bullshit they say.Too much of that will vacate out the good in you. You have come this far, stay strong buddy. Find some strong and trustworthy person like some coach, teacher who always admires you(In case if those people try to bully you at school)

 

Day 18 checking in for black templars.

 

I used to feel kind of disappointed with myself because I wasted all those years at univ and could not find anyone to fill the void.
But it doesn't hurt as much as earlier.I remember 4 months back I used to hate myself for being a loner loser. Maybe I only wanted a girlfriend to tell her how my day went, and not having a person or friend to talk to sucked.
Now I don't care if someone talks to me or not. I feel complete on my own,capable of doing any task by myself. Having a girlfriend will be nice but these days I am focusing on completing my post grad degree. Everything else will follow when the time will come.