Space Marine February - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

Checking In for Blood Angels.

 

Back on track after my relapse. 3 days of nofap always clears my mind and spirit.

 

Checking in, Day 19/28, Space Wolves.

 

Resetting back to zero truly sucks. The thing is that you are resilient and do not give up.
I discovered through the suggestions of others, that using a calendar in addition to the counter helps one to remain motivated and track the overall journey. I have been using the app Habit Tracker for Android(I think it is HabitBull on IOS) to track every single day since the beginning of the year. It helps to keep track of my percentage success rate and also see whether I am truly improving. I think it can be a good tool to discover patterns or trends such as which day(s) of the week do most relapses occur. Anyway, that is just my opinion and you could use a habit tracker app or calendar to track your progress in addition to the counter for an indefinite period of time if you are not already doing so.

 

Checking in, Dark Angels.

 

Check in black Templars

 

Reporting for the Space Wolves! A great Saturday morning for me. Looking forward to some much needed leisure time and just being in nature.

 

Checking in for the Black Templars! 24 days, I'm on a new record now!

Add an S to this, for Stressed! It's good that you're catching the patterns and triggers.

 

CHecking in
#discovered a major missing link, energy managment

I'm doing quite fine thogh even if I've never been under so much pressure workwise

 

Checking in day 20 for the Blood Angels! Last night went about as badly as I expected, would rather not go into detail but basically it feels like my soul has been shattered into a million pieces, my brain has been flattened by a bulldozer, and my heart has been ripped in half several times. And then there's the hangover which is also awful...

 

Checking in marines, a day full or urges but fighting temptation is a key part of this process and when it works out it's a great motivator to continue.

Huge congratulations Gallade, breaking records is a great sign and even more motivation to keep pushing forward!

 

Checking In for Blood Angels.
This is the first time since I started NoFap that I got sick. I have cold and flu and my head is feeling so heavy. Had an exam in morning and then spent whole day sleeping. I guess the next few days are gonna be very difficult for me.

 

@Sebbrix At least you can go out

It always helps in these situations to think that in one year I will laugh about it, maybe dont even remember.
It hapenned the way it was supposed to be.
Keep pushing!

I should aproach it the same way.
Today I behaved like selfish brat.
Couldnt control my emotions.
I am in the mood: fuck everybody.
Need to stop identifying with emotions too much.

Lets get it right or better the next time I am in similar situation. Thats all I can do.

 

Checking in, Day 20/28, Space Wolves.

 

Check in for black templars

 

Checking in for the Black Templars!

I got to go running again today for the first time in a week. It was an easy 4.5 miles, but as I expected, it brought on some tough urges later in the day. This link is very annoying and I still haven't figured out what to do about it.

 

Today is a very, very tough day. Started with stress, Anxiety, etc. But I settled that with meditation and then i became peaceful. But again I was hit by the hurdles of life. Wasn't able to complete today's tasks. Watched some videos on YT and read about the detrimental effects of binging TV or any web series or ANIME, for 50 minutes in the evening.
I'm feeling dizzy now, with No energy. It's probably because of the rewiring and reboot. The urges to binge were insane. I suppressed them by cycling, Cold showers, And some other activities but they had no effect. Even now I am suffering from the urges and I am confused now about City-Walkthroughs for the Imagination of my Dream City in 'lucid dream'(yes I started it 4 days ago and had a dream on the first night! but from that dream, I haven't had any lucid dream). I am confused that should I watch the city walkthroughs or not. Please tell me it's a dilemma! HELP..... Today is one of my hardest days of Rewiring my brain(i.e in 7-8 months).

 

After a really rocky day yesterday (I felt so close to resetting - I didn't look at anything or touch anything, but I could feel my brain ready to snap) I have felt much better today. I started, as always, at 7 (I know it's a Sunday, but it's what works for me), munched down some brekky and caught up on some stuff, then went out for my weekly long-run. Running has felt like a bit of a chore recently; I haven't been able to run during the day because of work, and the weather made it unsafe for running for a bit over a week so I couldn't go out on the weekends, so I was always just finishing work then trudging out for a run in the dark, cold, often wet evenings. Today was mercifully different! I ran the furthest I've run in a while (slowly building it up in preparation for a marathon, it wasn't so far in the grand scheme of things, only 11.2km, but it's nice to break through the 10k barrier), the weather was lovely so I just wore a t-shirt instead of the warmer jacket I have been wearing, the birds were singing, I had my trusty banana with me to refuel when I felt tired, and for the first time in a while I was able to mostly ignore the tracker (except, of course, to know when to turn around and when to stop) and just run with feeling. I'm also getting used to my new diet which has plagued me for the last week or so, so I no longer feel bloated and overfull! The shitshow from Friday night is still weighing on me a bit, but not so much as to affect me badly - I can always move on, there are plenty of fish in the sea, and for now I'm just glad to be me, glad to be alive, glad to be where I am! As a few of you fine people said, it's in the past now, I just need to move forward and look to the future. I've been looking into curating a few dating profiles, but I'll need to take some good snaps before I can have anything passable haha. Might convince my mate to be my personal photographer for a few hours one day...

 

Check in black templars.

 

Checking In for Blood Angels.
Suffering from severe cold and fever and slept through whole day. I can feel the energy being drained out of my body.
It is like a tight slap on my face because I thought being on a longer streak has increased my immunity by that amount that I started feeling invincible.
Everytime when I start feeling comfortable in my streak, something shit happens to me. Earlier it was wetdreams and now this sickness. Maybe this is the reason why I feel I didn't get benefits of nofap like female attraction.( I do have increased confidence btw and social anxiety is less than before.)