35 and Older Accountability Group

Made 7 days! Haven't done that for a while! Strong urges hit me this afternoon. But pushing through...

 

Hi, I've read the rules and I'd like to join this group. Last week wasn't great for me in terms of sobriety, and I've come to the conclusion that I need help from other people.

 

@Juxtaposition I am reading Alan Carr's Stop Smoking book. Is there an official version of it for stopping pr0n as well?

 

Checking in after a good week. Seem to have banished temptation at least these last 7 days after throwing facebook off my phone, which made a big difference. I'll spend a few days by myself later this week with lots of spare time, which will be a good test. Aiming to continue no engagement at all with psubs even if they pop up inadvertently. Taking a step back, it's quite impressive to see all the honest work everyone on this forum is doing. Keep it up all, stay strong!

 

Checking in.

Last week started with a relapse, then a bunch of stressful things happened at work, and to top it off we had water coming into our house because of the melting snow. Not fun.

Back on track now, but wow what a terrible week that was. If anything it is a good reminder of why I need to get my act together for when shit inevitably hits the fan. Not fun dealing with a job, 2 little kids, and a leaking house when you have a bunch of porn induced anxiety as well. Since my response to stress since age 13 has been to flood my brain with dopamine (video games & later porn), I can't say I'm particularly well positioned to deal with life's stressful events! Hoping that gaining control of the PMO aspect of my life will allow me to better deal with setbacks in the future.

 

Checking in.

 

Like a boss! Congrats!

 

Ill give it a look too. I need to change my efforts.

 

Thank you bro

 

Checking in. Feeling better than yesterday, ready to keep on going.

 

This looks really good and I'm going to work through it.

Thanks for bringing it here!

 

Super cool, thanks for that!

 

Glad to be part of this group!

I had a reset this morning. I've been on consistent runs of 6-7 days, followed by resets, but I've struggled so much during the past eight days that it feels like all the progress I've made in the past few months has been erased. I know this isn't true, and that it's my addiction trying to trick me ("You may as well give up..." seems to be the buried message,) but it's still discouraging.

My goal is a streak that's 10 days or more. That would be a miracle. It's been years since I've gone that long without porn.

 

Not thinking makes it easier

 

Checking in...

 

You're going strong, well done bro keep it up!

 

Checking in brothers

 

keep it going as long as you can!

 

Checking in on day 40. Feeling strong and motivated, but also recognizing that sexual desire has fully returned. I have no outlets at the moment, so it's all about using that energy and tension in positive ways while also staying very vigilant against middle circle behavior. I'll also say that I'm going through a very stressful moment in my life, and it feels SO GOOD to have the strength to handle it. I feel like a man--unshaken, able to hold this space with my head high, and deal with the issues of the moment head on instead of ducking away from them. In the past when i've used PMO to help deal with stress, it was a total disaster, compounding any and every issue. Right now I feel full of confidence that I can handle the cards in my hand, and do it with both strength and gratitude. I'm so thankful to be in that position.