transwoman porn extreme deppression

Yeah, porn addiction causes you to be aroused by things that you generally wouldn't be aroused by. I think you need to see a therapist for your addiction. Pornography will make you mentally fucked up in the head, especially the more extreme.

 

Know that you aren't alone. There are tons of posts on here from men (including myself), who have struggled with addiction to these genres (trans / transwoman / sissy etc). There are many theories as to why we develop these addictions, but generally, it's accepted that the main cause is often the addicted brain's constant search for novelty. And what's more novel than a beautiful woman with something between her legs that shouldn't be there? There are other factors at play too. There is a TED talk that describes how human men evolved to to get aroused at the sight of another erect penis (a sexual competition thing). AND also consider that many straight men don't really want to watch another man having sex with women, yet porn has conditioned our brains to want to see a penis of some sort in a sex scene. All those factors are really a perfect storm for creating an addiction to trans porn. It ticks all the boxes without having to look at another dude.

You should search for posts on here that are realated. Understanding it more might help you come to terms with it.

Personally, I never acted upon the cravings in the real world. I considered it, but luckily realised that those cravings were coming from porn addiction and were not really what I wanted. However, there are plenty of guys on here who have gone as far as you did, and further. I think it's important for you to accept that it happened. Try to see the positive side - it sounds like since those experiences you've managed to kick the porn addiction entirely and come to the understanding that what you were doing didn't represent your true self - that's amazing!!! Perhaps you can thank those experiences for that. Had you never acted out, you might still be stuck in the world of porn addiction.

I know it's easier said than done. But try to understand that there really is no shame in what you did. You experimented with something, realised it wasn't for you, and didn't do it again. That's ok.

 

You need to realise that life can be messy it's not always in our control we go through life constantly learning.. ok we got addicted to porn it's becoming part of the human experience these days . Drugs and porn are always going to lower inhibitions and make us act in ways we never would or consider the real consequences.... i wouldnt get too hung up over it. You got a bit wild and had no fucks given.. but realised it was porn and drug driven. Put it to the back of your mind and get on with your life ... who gives a fuck really .

I knew a dude who was bouncer used to meet girls on tinder . And went out on a date with a girl . The next day he was telling us all she was a transgendered person and he let her blow him .. not one fuck did he give ....

Fuck it .... such is life just put it in the past. And move on with your life.

 

If you can, go see a therapist.

Don't worry, I have some annoying story that I buried years ago that sometimes come back and annoy me.

You are not alone.

 

so you say you are not addicted anymore(congrats) and you know why it rose to that level. You were not yourself on the porn and drugs and now you are yourself again. Congrats again, you have survived. most are not proud of our porn past but to be ashamed and depressed after recovery is not the usual outcome. I think your issue is with your god. What religious doctrine/rule did you break? Looking at porn or looking at transwoman porn? is there a difference? Id like to debate whether religion frowns upon she males over other people but id rather say that god forgives unconditionally. so if you believe that you have done something wrong then ask for forgiveness and love from your god and move on!! you have done the rest you say.

 

I know it is scary to masturbate extreme genres, a lot of us experience this. But your only addiction is dopamine, you want the same amount of rush everytime you search through for porn. Our brains' develop tolerance easily. Do not focus on which category you have watched, it does not matter. A lot of us firstly began with vanilla porn, then we escalate to different genres. Porn is a button to get a dopamine high, it is a tool. So, quit pushing the button, eveytime you overcome, everytime you get clean your brain creates new pathways and weakens old porn pathways. Eventually your brain does not want it anymore.

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/reb...n-or-gay-attracted-to-straight-porn-whats-up/

 

Coke AND porn? Together? At such high dopamine levels I wouldn't be surprised if you were f*cking goats and s*cking off camels or even fantasizing about sexual cannibalism.

I once read an article about a sex lunatic who, after being apprehended by the police and asked whether the victims of his cannibalistic orgies were males or females, replied "you really expect me to tell male from female during an orgy?".

Honestly, there's only so much the brain can take.

 

Don't feel shame. The one that needs to feel shame is the porn industry and the porn actors who contributing to the addictions of innocent young kids. One day they will pay for their crimes!

 

I was gonna say I hope they pay for their crimes with the worst sexual OCDs imaginable but then again OCD only comes at you with things you dread not thing you enjoy and do for a living lol

 

Dont let it haunt you the rest of your life man. Please take the time to read my story on my profile about my experience with all this depravity. Im 20 years old and last year my life took a very dark turn after i went down that same path you were on with the transwoman porn ugh just saying it except i eventually went and met a ts escort. No penetration on both ends i just got head and to keep long story short without getting into details, I fucked up. Big time. The depression you’re feeling I’ve felt for years after i was molested as a kid and the realization of it in my teens and the last year with this rampant pmo addiction, i just added fuel to the fire. Keep your head up man dont let this world break you. Thanks for sharing your experience, this site is very important.

 

Thanks for you post and boy oh boy have i asked that question over and over again since. The only conclusions i can come to is that I fucked up and I was a vulnerable kid and growing up I never had much guidance nor knowledge of self combined with the personal struggles of my upbringing, I was susceptible to a life of depression drugs and eventually pmo which stems from my childhood being sexually abused made my whole mind warped. Man sometimes I still feel like im in dark shallow corner alone because of the fucking fact that my dumbass went and did what i did. I look at the guys i know in my life and I look at them with just a god bless em outlook because i know we all go through our own shit but at least they didnt do this sissy shit i did. Its pathetic and I know it. The only way I know i can come back from all this is through my actions aligned with my thoughts of consciousness, the righteous thoughts. Not those evil sick demented thoughts that have plagued my brain since i was 15 and no longer giving into em. I have to take my power back. I know exactly why i did what i did and how it lead up to that point. Thats where i find some kind of comfort. That i can pinpoint what it was that got me there. And the simple truth and it isnt me deflecting responsibility of my actions i take full accountability, but the truth is I’m not that same person anymore. I was literally in a state of hypnosis without a doubt in a trance. And now im learning to treat myself like i would someone else i care for thank you jordan peterson. I can come back from this. You cant change the past but you know what, I believe if you begin living in the present moment and have a vision of a better future, you can go back in your past and envision yourself doing certain things differently. We humans give up so much power to this world and our sick society but the real power is all within. I just ask everyday god or the universe or whatever to forgive me for going down a misguided path and enable me the strength to move on and live with that spark of energy i once had before my innocence was shattered. Almost teared up typing this. Advice id give is to make sure you dont keep all this bottled up inside like i have. Its okay to talk to someone or find an outlet to release that fire inside you. Dont lose hope and understand you’re only as wise as the ways you went down and where you choose to go decides all that if that made any sense. Sorry for long response. Thanks

 

Easier said than done but very true. And maybe i will i haven’t decided on that yet. Appreciate you

 

No problem dude we have to all support each other because even though we may experience different things that can be a little similar we for sure experience the same emotions and feelings inside. One thing i should’ve mentioned is to learn to not give a fuck what other people think or would think about you because 9 times out of 10 they are either just projecting what they think of themselves or have no clue what its like to be in your shoes. Dont let that thought hold you down, what others might think if they had found out its a waste of your power and energy and actions always speak louder than words. Start living differently more conscious and aware and you’ll view your past self as someone who just didnt know no better.