Im afraid of acting out. Help me please

Don't waste time and money on escorts.
One day you'll regret it for sure.
START STRONG & BEST OF LUCK

 

It this porn induced fantasy? Most probably. They rarely come out to be good in reality. There is a big difference between masturbating to porn and participating in something in real life. We have much greater tolerance for porn than for real activities.

 

Better leave it. I had pegging, trans and gay fantasies but then I realised I probably wouldn't be able to perform in anal sex, it just hurts, so I dropped it. Acting on those fantsies may lead to very unpleasant acts, not to mention regret or even trauma.

 

Anal Sex its not something you will enjoy instantly that's why not many women do it, it is a process to get your body use to it. That can take months even.

I used to not like it but now I like to have anal Sex I mean penetrate a girl anally not myself, because its a very íntimate experience the anus its a place of vulnerability a place not many people will alow us to be around.

So its something very intimate dont see it as porn sees it, like an animal type of thing.

Its something you do with someone you love and if that is the case do it with a caring partner start with she giving you a prostate massage and take it from there.

 

This is not to argue with you - I agree fully. I just also wanted to point out that being "topped by a transwoman" prostitute is not "real life" either.
OP, you do understand that "being topped by a transwoman" in your fantasy is almost more real than what will happen with a prostitute? This is a person who probably has no desire to top anyone, who, due to economic hardship, will PRETEND to like you and be into "topping" and anal sex with a dude, regardless of what they actually think, like or want? This is something so obvious, but seems to be almost a surprise for someone who thinks that porn industry and actual human sexuality and intimacy are the same thing.

 

I hope you do not act on that. You do not want to pay for sex it is just as bad as porn. God bless you.

 

Mate, its definitely not worth it, i've had a few experiences with hookers while travelling and getting drunk, and its really disgusting and clinical! i regretted it the first time and said i wouldn't repeat, but a year later, another drunken night in Barcelona with my friends, and it just happened (the strip club that also was a brothel...)

That was around 3 and a half years ago now.. and they aren't fond memories.

Be patient and lose your V card to real women, its safer, cleaner, and will do your confidence a lot more good.

 

It might even be worth waiting to meet a girl, getting into a sexual relationship with her, and seeing if she will do a roleplay thing to fulfil your fantasy? worth a shot, dont ask, dont get!

 

How are you now?

 

you are reading too much into this, like seriously you never role play with your partner? same thing basically, and most trans escort "like" to top as it get there more cash.
not saying that it is a good thing(getting into escort) just a bad argument.

 

Reduce your anxiety/stress levels.
Meanwhile , if u are torn btwn p and acting out , use p.

 

Exercise and meditation are very effective in battling stress.

 

Remember the feelings you get when you relapse, feelings of regret and sadness. Now multiple that by 100,000 that’s what you’ll feel like if you act on your fantasy. And you’ll probably have to get yourself checked for serious std’s afterwards.

 

Is this something which developed because of porn?

You should not do it. Imagine the shame and guilt which you feel because of the porn what you watched.
With nofap you could easily leave this chapter of your life behind you but when you act on it you will maybe not recover so easily and feel extreme shame.
I read often that some people were in your same situation and act on it.
All felt shame and guilt. It made their situation worse.

Next to the topic, do guys think that fantasy not have to match with your real life or in general with your sexual orientation?

 

It will get better, the fact that you posted here shows that you really do not want to do it. Meanwhile find something to occupy you - a book or netflix series or something productive, exercise, walk, cooking etc.

 

You don't know what you'd be throwing away if you did it. Back away from the fantasy and let it wither and die, and don't look back.