PIED affecting marriage

Hi guys back on this site after a long time. I am 38 and married with a 7 month old kid. Married life is great and my wife is wonderful, but I am addicted to porn, mainly lesbian porn. The impact of this is that our sex life has gone down to non existent, and when we do have sex, I can stay hard for more than a few minutes. I am not sure if my ED is porn induced or not, but I know for a fact that porn has destroyed my brain so much that it affects my intimacy with my wife. I am committing to no PMO for at least next 28 days. Will report progress and results

 

Haha yeah no, no way I made 500 forgot to reset. Will learn how to do it now

 

Day 1 will be tough, as my wife will be gone for a few hours with our baby and I will have the whole house to myself. Normally this is the time when I succumb to my urges. Have to be strong. Maybe I will do 50 push-ups today to keep me focused

 

Thanks, will check it out

 

Day 1 went surprisingly well! My wife was out but I didn’t engage in PMO at all. First off I was busy at work and then I had some motivational stuff on my phone that I was listening to. Stuff like ted talks about P and also some stuff by Terry Crews. That really helped. I also decided to delete from my phone some other crutches that I had. For example I had some interactive stories app where I would follow lesbian storylines. I got rid of that. Next thing I have to be cognizant of is to not go looking for non P lesbian stuff either. For example trying to find lesbian content on YouTube or trying to watch female wrestling. I also tried to find and watch lesbian shows on Netflix. I have to put and end to it.

 

Haha true! Not sure if my wife will always be there to initiate things, if I keep being on the defensive about it she might just check out, then I will be in the same boat as you! Lol anyways day 2 is going well. Wife is out on a walk with the baby, and I am good by myself at home. Being doing push-ups and motivational audio, that helps

 

Day 2 went well, onto Day 3... I feel like I am feeling better but I already feel like I am losing my libido. Is that normal?

 

3rd day almost done ... all good so far!

 

Thanks man! That’s exactly it, I have been imagining how my son would react if he ever knew, also I am running the risk of really affecting my marriage. So yeah thanks for laying it out like that for me

 

3 successful days done, it’s almost the weekend. I will end this thread here because I am going to start a journal under ‘Journals’ to chronicle my journey