Easily Angered

Hey brothers,

I hope you’re all doing well. Seems like I’ve hit another plateau and I’m seeking some advice to overcome it.

I’m at 125 days of no porn, 53 days of semen retention, had a nocturnal emission(none sexual dream) 8 days ago , due to anger I believe.

For about a week and a half I’ve been angry easily, I tend to replay the scene in my head too. Today, a family member pissed me off , insanely. My blood is boiling, instead of just shrugging it off or disregarding it, I’m mad. I also meditate quite a few times a day, but today it only alleviates the emotion for a short duration, only for it to return.
I feel like flipping a table, punching a hole threw the wall, breaking a plate etc. I actually run those thoughts in my head sometimes this last week and a half.

I’m usually not quick to anger, actually quite the opposite really.

Do you have any tips? Is this normal/part of the recovery process? The tension I get from this anger is pretty scary tbh. I swear facing your emotions can be extremely challenging...

 

Very good point, I have trouble with the attachment part to the emotion. I’ll work on reinforcing “I am experiencing “ as opposed to I am angry. Btw I wouldn’t actually punch a whole in the wall/flip a table, I’m just saying the thought pops in my mind haha, I would never act on that type of thought. Thank you for your wisdom brother!

 

Thank you for this brother, I’ll take a look this coming weekend! You’re absolutely right..I note my ego on so many of my reactions. It’s just one of the challenges I face now that I can’t hide behind PMO or other things.

 

What gave you that impression? None at all, I don’t even drink alcohol lol.

 

Ohh okay, I took that the wrong way. Sorry brother, I appreciate the assist. Hopefully it’ll settle in the next few weeks. This journey is really a roller coaster ride.

 

Have you dealt with anger along the journey?

 

Thank you for sharing brother! Glad to hear I’m not the only one, makes sense. My T levels were quite low when I tested them 4 months ago. Yeah I need to start adding more slowly to my workouts..burn that excess energy and anger positively

 

You’re right brother, the soul itself feels corrupted. The more I go on this journey, it’s peeling back layers. I see you have quite the impressive streak going, congratulations on your success. I hope to reach the same eventually. If you don’t mind me asking, how long did it take you to start feeling “normal” over all?

 

Blood test, ask them to test your total T and free T, made the mistake of not asking for both. I got a referral from my family doctor.

 

The anger just shows up, sometimes for example I’d be pissed off annoyed if someone in my family points out or just says “Did you try warming the food up for longer”. It’s just silly reasons to be irritated by. I might lash out with a sarcastic comment or what not. Never beyond that.