Damn... I relapsed again

Here there are some porn blockers i reccomende
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...ve-your-willpower-an-aid-easy-streaks.272658/
They are complementary to each other.

Also :

Spoiler: About Relapse Prevention

 

The recovery of the PMO habit is simple, just do it and learn how to resist the temptations. It can seem complicated because our brain knows the ways to have that and we lose the motivation after trying to get the response: just more one.Once time overcoming this, you can have more motivation to keep going. If you want to share it with people is better yet. You can do it.
You said about the motive in your life and i think the habit makes us feel worst than normal depending the time we spend on it, the thoughts about it. Depending the way we see life, it can change if we aren't satisfied with it.

 

I wrote this, may or not help you, but hope it speaks to you. I understand how damaging and frustrating it is. You can do it, you can quit. You may need to tell someone tho
The importance of self trust- life changing | NoFap®

 

My addiction is fuelled by avoiding responsibilities in life. (eg. I don't want to pay bills, so I don't look at them and PMO instead. After that, the bills are still there and I feel like crap. Eventually the bills pile up, and I keep searching for more porn to fight the feelings. Maybe I binge eat, shop, sleep, drink, watch movies instead. Eventually I feel like I am out of control).

Solution: Do something that you don't want to do.
Maybe it's one little thing, like making the bed. Doing that will feel good, and then maybe you'll want to do more. Do that.
Or, maybe you know its something bigger, like filing your taxes or telling someone the truth when you really don't want to. Do that. Do something today that will make for a better tomorrow. Tomorrow will be a little better, and then do another thing. You'll get there.

 

Hello
Know this: Everything in nature is cyclical. Moon keeps spinning around the earth, the earth spins around the sun, the sun spins around the galaxy, etc. The seasons come and go. Porn addicts keep relapsing. Everything in nature is cyclical.
That's what people call fate. Everything that's in your life that you don't understand controls you.

The way out of this is to mature as a person which means to become more conscious of everything. Instead of trying to abstain x amount of days, try to gain understanding. You don't "lose control" when you relapse, something inside you that you don't understand drives you to watch porn. Ask yourself a thousand questions and try to answer them with 100% honesty. What do you want in life, why do you want it, how do you get it, what happens if you do this or that, etc. That's how you become more conscious of who you are. Understanding leads to control.

I for example haven't stopped watching sexy women online because I haven't understood exactly what the bad consequences are. I don't feel the bad consequences. So why stop?
However I have felt what happens to me when I watch other men have sex with women I find attractive. I've isolated the bad feeling inside of me, I've seen and felt the bad effect it has on my mind and now I don't watch porn with men involved anymore. And it's easy not to do it, the choice is clear to me, I don't have to wrestle with myself. But only because I understood that there are some things I'm not willing to compromise to feel lust.

Try to figure out what's so bad about the effect that porn has on you. Isolate the bad feelings, compare them to your goals in life, once you have gained enough understanding the choice will be clear to you.

Nature is cyclical and bound to repeat itself. It's bound to follow a pattern. Consciousness is control, it represents your choice. It's your direction, what you want. The two are not the same. Everything about you that you don't understand is nature and will control you until you become aware of it. Brute force (like just trying to abstain as many days as possible) will never work in the long term.

 

Try to find what might be causing you to PMO impulsively. At this point I would also consider seeking psychiatric help.

 

Yea don't worry about it, I fell on a 20-day streak. Its progress over perfection. If you compare this journey to a video game in that at a stage in the game you'll die (in this case relapse) however you can always get a respawn, during the respawn you have another chance to capitalize on where you failed previously. I too have been battling this for a long time not reaching these vast streaks as some of these other guys. I can't compare myself to other people on here, I'm on my own journey. One of the most beautiful things during this journey has been being able to see potential relapses before they happen at which point capitalizing and choosing the other path. I recommend watching that movie "edge of tomorrow" in which tom cruise basically continues to die and relapse all the while battling aliens. It's an epic movie but gets at the point at which I was talking. Progress over perfection, capitalize on where you failed, pick yourself back up, don't dwell on the failure but continue on.