Severe depression: porn addiction or bisexuality?

hello, I had the same problem too
the first porn i ever watched was a lesbian porn so i thought i was a lesbian too (ive never been interested into anyone romantically or sexually before porn) because i liked this type of stuff but my friend told me that might not be the case, she said i become what i see and i think it's true. she also said maybe i thought that way because i like the sex part, not serious relationship with another woman and it's true for me, im just addicted to women having sex, but im not interested in having relationship with other woman. ive been trying to quit it (but failing miserably) because i know deep down that it's just lust for sexual stuff instead of real interest in someone and that i keep fantasizing having sex with my friends, it's hurting me i feel sad i feel lost. i binged watched porn (lesbian porn too) for the past few days and it's really really hard i dont even feel like quitting anymore. i thought about accepting myself too, but when i thought deeply about it it still doesnt ring true to me, i was just doing the easier thing -- quitting is hard so i chose the other path.

so emm we have the same question and i told you about my friend's sharing and my struggles, i hope this helped in some ways. i think u should think deeply about it, if you decided that gay porn is affecting and hurting you and you wanna quit, there will be difficulties and tribulations but i hope youll get through it and not just take the easier path.

 

I think porn is negative in general it has no positive value so I would quit porn regardless. I believe you will realize you are straight and it was the porn messing with your brain. If you decide you still have these attractions after you quit porn I’d just ask yourself if you want to be with a woman or man who do you see yourself with?

 

Yes you're bisexual. gay people are usually full on gay or more gay than straight. If you fap to both genders about the same amount you are probably 50/50. Nothing wrong with being gay or bi im just stating how it works because you asked. It was your choice to be bi not "porn induced bisexuality" that dont exist.

 

Personally, i wouldn't even trust my sexual compass while having this addiction, because it's pointing in every direction for me. Even asexual (not attracted to anyone) at times. I think I would go back to beliving my compass after i have been able to abstain for a good amount of time.

 

First off, there's no such thing as 100% straight. Any guy who says he's never found another man attractive is a liar. We all have thoughts, even if we never act on them.

Unfortunately, homophobia is still alive and well. There are bigots in this world that think love must look a certain way. They live in the past, in some 1950's Sound of Music Dolly Parton kinda fantasy land. It's not a real place.

The question is - who cares? PMO is the problem, not who or what it's of. Maybe those urges will go away after you quit, maybe not. But accept yourself now, and please, give yourself space and support to find your own healthy sexuality (men or women or both) and a community that you feel welcome in.

Nothing feeds PMO more than shame and guilt. Don't let the bigots win.