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5 months

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Pfree, Aug 1, 2015.

  1. Pfree

    Pfree Fapstronaut

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    When I first discovered the whole NoFap thing back in March I had so many questions.
    Is it really related to masturbation and porn? Or is it just related to having to many orgasms? Is it really a reversible brain/physical condition or is it just "mood condition" or "psychological condition".
    How long will it take? What does the process feel like? How do I know when it's over? What is flat line, am I experiencing it? Can reboot be combined with a light form of masturbation? etc

    So with sharing my experience I hope I can partly answer some of the questions to new people.
    Not sure if it belongs in the success stories, but I do feel it's a success.

    I started the instance I read about this. I was so sick of my ED problems that I didn't wait a day to throw away everything, once I was convinced by the tons of articles describing everything I was experiencing.
    Honestly, I feel so much better, I'm even starting to forget how bad I was. I mean I remember how bad it was, but not the details. This is not just some motivation thing, I'm sharing my true experience.

    Back in March I threw away all porn, I avoided anything with porn or nudity, I tried to not look at girls sexually, I was basically taking it serious.

    The first things I noticed was morning woods, which i didn't have before, or very rarely.
    In week 6 or so, I thought I deserved an experimental test, which I thought would do justice to my cravings and to measure where I was at that time.
    I masturbated without porn and it felt ok, physical and natural. I tried it again a week later and I just felt I was going back, ED symptoms kicked back in and that's where I decided I'm not doing it anymore. So for me there is no way it can be combined with masturbation, it just didn't work out for me.

    I'm not 100% sure anymore about the timings, but about 1 months later I had sex for the first times with "medical help" (pills) and all went good (I even had problems with pills before) and slowly gained confidence.
    And maybe on month 3 or so I started doing it without pills and yes it works. Sensations are back, vagina started feeling like they once did and that was the first major boost I had. I was determined to continue.
    Before the reboot it was a lost cause even before I started, part of it may be a psychological pressure, but many of it is simply the insensitivity caused by masturbation and porn and the whole chemical imbalance in the brains perhaps, as explained in many articles.

    Now after 5 months I'm starting to know what flat line is (or better yet, what not).
    I didn't even remember the normal shape. The psychological pressure is also gone, I know I can do it. It still takes some time and romance but that's ok, I think I can have better control within the next few months.

    I'm not focused on when the reboot will be over, not anymore at least, because I reached my goal. Having sex was my major goal, and it's already possible. Now it's only a matter of improving.

    I often wonder why I watched porn everyday, and if I will relapse. And I don't think I will, I don't understand the old me. It's like I was drowning somewhere, and now I'm on solid high ground looking down to that place. I didn't experience it as drowning because I didn't know how bad it was, though I did feel this cannot continue. But right now, I do see clear, it's just not good. Not for the mind, not for the body...it was a great stress reliever, for a minute, but what price you pay for one minute.
    Now I don't have any cravings to relief stress that way, it just feels so unnecessary.
    It's great because I don't even have to think it through, the reboot has taken me away from it and the healing takes over. I'm not sure if everyone experiences it this way, but I don't have to fight anything right now.

    I used no specific tools other than the mind. I constantly reminded myself of past experiences and how bad they were, those were my main motivations and I used that as a tool to continue. I did have some moments I felt weird and difficult but honestly it could be worse if you think about what you're achieving. You're working for a place in heaven, it's worth the little suffering. That's how I went through it.

    I may edit something here later if something comes up.

    Cheers
     
    Last edited: Aug 1, 2015
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  2. Behnam

    Behnam Fapstronaut

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    Congrats. Great to see another success story.
     
  3. ThatOneGuy56

    ThatOneGuy56 Fapstronaut

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    Great job! I hope to be five months clean one day too :p.
     
  4. Pfree

    Pfree Fapstronaut

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    Thanks guys, nofap is the best thing that happened to me in the last 8 years or so.
    I wish I found out earlier, things would be so different by now.
     
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  5. terminator1

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    I love to hear your story! It gives me motivation!
     
  6. DannyCool

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    That is good to remember. Remember where we can go back to.
     

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