Girl's Meltdown in Porn Chatroom Haunts Me , Motivates Me

Phillip, there is a fifth category. Women forced into it by their partners. Its one of the less known aspects of domestic violence.
Most prostitutes and a fair few cam girls fall into categories four and five. Drug addiction and the threat of harm to a child is one of the control mechanisms used to keep them there.
I cannot speak for the porn actresses and doubtless many of them have chosen willingly to do this so they might fall into category 1. Then again, which one of us have not been tempted to sell some part of our soul for money? Bankers playing roulette with pension funds? Lawyers defending guilty-as-hell clients? Cheating the tax office? Investing or working for companies that destroy the earth one piece at a time? Everyone doing it does not make it alright.
That being said, I do agree that people should take more responsibility for their choices.

 

agree , nothing more to say.

 

Awesome motivation right there bro! Thank you for sharing that story!

 

To have the courage to admit that experience you had from a porn chatroom is commendable. It really made me think deeply about what goes through the minds of those who take off their clothes and let others use their body in exchange for sex. Almost all of the old adult vids I used to watch were really intense stuff (BDSM, humiliation, etc.). If that porn cam girl that you described was broken emotionally as she was, I cannot fathom as to the horror of the women I have watched in my videos getting beaten down physically and sexually for the sake of my own self-amusement. The scars from doing extreme vids like that are scars that may never heal.

Those words of yours have made me even more determined and driven to keep up the good fight against PMO. Me, and a lot of other fapstronauts on the site who have seen this post, are truly grateful for you opening up like that, and are saddened at the life of that poor girl whose breakdown you witnessed. Congrats on making it so far in your streak, and may you continue to keep fighting off PMO's influence on your life.

 

I was just like you, couldn't wait for them to go to bed. And the edging would begin, most of the time I wouldn't O for days, just building up the tension. I did this for years and years consuming more and more. I rarely experienced PIED, but started to once in awhile near the end, but I was able to manage it and wasn't a driving factor to quit.

As to you point about not reading on quitting because of caring about the women, well, I have written about it on several occasions. I think it was the number one reason I wanted to quit, I was just getting disgusted with it. Then I paid for a pay site (really hard core stuff) and after the 90 day subscription I just couldn't stand it anymore. I started to think that there is no way these women liked doing this. I was helping support the demand for it. I felt dirty! I have 4 daughters, and well and I was done. It was wrong, I had totally compartmentalized it, justified it, even convinced myself these women were nymphos and liked it, all apart of the fantasy. But, as the years went on the the P got harder and harder core, and as you escalate up the perversion and shock levels there becomes a point where you can no longer not hate what you are doing. I was finally there! And I WILL NEVER GO BACK TO THAT WASTED LIFE!!!

Stay strong and good luck!

 

Great ! 07

 

This is some deep stuff bro. You're right, though most teenagers (like me) if not 99% of teens wouldn't look at it this way.. It's very true. Ignorance and our minds set us straight to believe porn is okay because in truth, they're "Performing" for us. In the end though, it really isn't the case. Watching Porn/Paying for the premium in the end is supporting a nasty business. Fight The New Drug is a great example of this, it is an anti-pornography organization that explains the harmful effects of Pornography, including stories of actual actors themselves confessing to what it's like.
You should take a look! It may inspire you even more.

 

BDSM is always consensual - any resistance is just part of an act. Actually, BDSM stresses consensual-ness and aftercare and gentleness even more than "vanilla" sex, really. If you don't stress aftercare and love and gentleness, the Dom could get rough and uncaring and start ACTUALLY hurting the sub. Don't worry about the BDSM, worry about the overuse of the porn in general.

 

You never really think about the reality of porn... listening to your story has helped me. Thank you.

 

That's a beautiful, if painful, story, Armed & Dangerous. We make people into objects by silencing them. But right then, that woman had a voice, and you chose to listen to it. That's the stuff saints are made of, paying attention to that small whisper of the downtrodden and giving voice to the voiceless.