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75/41

 

30/207:

Past few days including today has been tough. My alcoholic dad was drunk as usual and he doesn't realize that it is a big issue since past 4 decades, even before I was born. He drinks even in the morning and afternoon when he has some money. Works drunk a lot of time. Even after having multiple conversations, it doesn't help him. This brings embarrassment to family and impacting my personal life.

The thing is, even though I have made friends, I can't ask them to meet my dad because it is difficult to predict if he will be sober or drunk when meeting them. There had been countless marriage ceremonies and other functions of various family members and neighbors without him, just because he was too drunk that day. There were many arguments and fights with my relatives in past, when my father got drunk and created scene. Such situations make me hopeless sometimes. He is 60 but doesn't think twice about the fact that he is not the same young guy anymore, but older and he might die drinking too much. Surprisingly, his internal organs were fine, a couple of years back, when I got an ultrasound done.

I am not so rich to send him to rehab, at this point of time. May be I should live with the fact that there will be future arguments and embarrassments because of my father.

Some good things: Even though, I was a little sleep deprived I went out for running and exercising in the morning, for last 3 days. And this really helped me feel good.

 

Day 2953, goal 2954. Thanks @Reclaiming!

 

346/730 days no PMO, semen retention

 

I fucked up today.

0/10

Not feeling too good right now.
At least I beat my former record by three days, that's something.

I'll try setting a goal this time.
Going for 20 days

 

You made it to double digits and that's still good. You can beat 20 days too.
Just take one day at a time.

 

117/136. Marching onward.

 

43/134

 

57/30
Next Goal 100

 

61/238

 

76/41

 

31/207

 

Another 10 to go. Keep it up brother!

 

118/136.

 

Day 0/22
An update of what's happened lately- I haven't checked in here in quite some time. I haven't relapsed into anything over the last few days, but I am resetting my counter because my biggest focus is self-improvement, and consistency. So from today I will stay clean and also make sure I am also remaining consistent with myself and my daily tasks. I am wishing all the best for everyone else here!

 

Day 2954, goal 2955

 

347/730 days no PMO, semen retention