The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 228.

Your strength doesn't come from techniques, it comes from within you. You have to find the resolve and tenacity.

 

Day 125. Definitely feeling some urges today. I think it may be a chaser effect from some of the urges that I experienced over the weekend. I had a very intense wet dream, one of the most real wet dreams I have ever had. I woke up wondering if I had O. This forum has really helped to keep track of the urges I am experiencing and understand what is triggering them. Pushing through!

 

Day 56 ,this was my last streak the last time, but this time i am capable to go more , thanks fellowship for all the support, advices and more, i couldn't done this alone.

 

Daily checking.

St. Augustine of Hippo, pray for us!

 

23 day

 

Day 4 Trod on

 

Day 3,

Active day and started it with a run! Happy to be back in the garden a bit. Spring has sprung and it is great to see a new season move in.

Happiness to you Fellowship!

 

I agree with you, just even if someone quits every triggering site,social app etc. there will be allways something to triggers you, mosty its really random.
Most of us is trying to forget about porn, and not thinking about it is keeping us from failing, but when someone or something just little bit gives us remind of porn/sexual content, our brain will start thinking about it.
Its just a mastery, to control our thoughts, and forget about it as soon as posible, because if its not handled it will be soon out of controll and in the end we fail.

 

267 days

 

Day 350.

 

just noticed this. Sorry I missed it. Thank you my good man. Feelings of inadequacy sum it up pretty good. Getting there. Day by day. God bless you for taking the time to show you care. Helps the old feelings of inadequacy. .

 

Checking in late on Day 19.

 

Day 9.
It is funny, sometimes a feel a desire desire for porn, not a urge, but a felling similar to when seeing the blue sky and the infinite (the ones who read A Song of Ice and Fire will remember Tyrion at the Eyrie's prison) you feel the desire to jump, even though you don't have any suicidal thoughts, strange, maybe a deadly curiosity it is.

 

Day 15

 

Day 15 check-in (Attempt 4) - Hobbit!

 

Day 1 complete!

Yesterday left me feeling very tired, both physically and emotionally. Monday is one of the days when I have time set aside to run, though, so this morning I pushed myself to wake up early and go out for a tough run. I'm so glad I did. It was almost symbolic, in a way. If I can recover from the reset, not allow myself to suffer the consequences, but to muscle through and really exercise my willpower, I have what I need to beat this.

 

Checking in on Day 128.

 

Relapsed a few days back and haven't been able to maintain a streak since then. Although I did go to my pastor this past Saturday and thru confession basically brought up the struggle I've been dealing with. Its definitely a weight off your shoulders to share what you're going thru with someone else.

I'm feeling the need to ramp things up in terms of my recovery process. I've struggled the past weeks getting a long streak. My longest one in recent memory was prob 23 days. I'm going to look into getting a therapist, who can hopefully share their perspective on how to improve.

Has anyone been in SAA before? If you have would u mind sharing what the process looks like to join?