If there were an award for masturbating..

Male-28-India
I am a Chartered Accountant and here goes my story.
I was born a bright kid and was always good at studies. Ever since i found out about sex i was very curious about it. When i was kid we had no access to internet or porn. I think i was 14 when i first had my nightfall. After some days before going to bed i was caressing my genitalia i discovered masturbation. And after that there seldom have been a day when i have gone to bed without masturbation.
At first it was just curiosity and i repeated it consistently that it formed a habit and i have no idea when it took hold of me as an "addiction" and it has been 14 years. I did not considered that habit as bad one because i was doing pretty well in studies. However everything except studies was in chaos but i did not realise it. I have very few friends and i said i am an introvert. Life went on.
2 Years back i passed my CA examinations. Now its time to face the world where only being good at studies doesn't pay you. I joined 2 different job and i could not fulfill my duties. I have developed severe inferiority complex and social anxiety. I joined an audit firm and given an assignment of internal audit of a very big trading company. I could not get information from the employees of the company. I could not communicate in a convincing or commanding way. I knew what i needed to do but i was unable to perform. I quit the job thinking in 2 months i did not have enough guidance. Then i joined as a finance manager in a good hotel. Even though i was finance manager of the office i could not command the janitor. Even a junior accountant could confront me. Everything was mess. Then I thought i was not made for job and i need to get my own clients so i joined a firm owned by my friend on partnership basis. I would get minimal salary and keep all my earnings from my personal client. A very promising outlook. However everything i needed to face the real world was gone. I could not talk to people i could not concentrate on work even i dont have a preference on anything except for porn. And came the covid lockdown. I had Rs.10K ($200) with me when the lockdown began. I dont have to support my family and dont have to pay for food or rent so the lockdown ended fairly easily however leaving me with guilt and self loathing.
I started to feel suicidal so i considered talking with a psychiatrist on social anxiety. I did a few session but i felt he is not helping so i stopped seeing him. Browsing through youtube i came across this video then found out what was i facing.
Now how severely am i addicted..
I have been masturbating regularly for 14 years. I have forgotten the initial years but i think for first 3-4 years it was once daily before sleeping on bed. It was just masturbation and no porn till here. I had seen naked pics on a magazine for porn otherwise it was just imagination and sometimes half naked pictures of actresses and models. almost 10yeas ago i got nokia phone with memory card and hell it was useful. I had my own porn collection and watching porn i started masturbating couple of times a day. Then almost 6 year before i got smartphone and with high speed internet. Now i think the addiction got complete hold of me. I had to attend internship and i masturbated in office. I prefer to stay at home and masturbate than go out and have social contact. With high speed internet and accessibility of porn i have masturbated till my penis hurts and 2 drop of water like substance appears for cum. Now it has been almost a year and i think the average number of times i masturbate daily is at least 3 and once a day is minimum and sometimes i feel like i have already been infertile however i am happy that my i still have erections.
I strongly believe excessive masturbation is the reason for my inferiority complex social anxiety and very less energy. Hell i know name of more porn actresses than other celebrities and I know hell lot of pornsites.
So I thought to nofap and had a streak of 8 days relapsing last monday. And again had a massive masturbation streak for one week. I am trying to start again today.
Hoping for good results.