Somebody please help me

I've been there. I had a 13 months streak when the pain caused by porn was bigger than my will to live, in that moment i was able to start the streak. I thought "or i'll do that or i'll die".

I remember the suicidal thoughts, i was trying to find a way to end it all, but that will pass, i can ensure you that.

 

You know, as I was reading your post the thought occurred to me, for some reason, to tell you to go watch the series "Avatar: The Last Airbender", all the seasons (or chapters) . Watch Ang's growth. Listen to his teacher's. Pay close attention to those points in the episodes where they talk about him being able to accomplish his abilities. A fun way to get out of the slump.

Other than that. I will say this, "you have the power (literally) to put yourself into a big depression, so you definitely have the power to get yourself out". All things, wonderful and bad, are sourced from within us. You just have to activate it, and be conscious of which "side" is trying to rise up.

 

Hey dude, I know that feeling. I've been there - seriously, I have. Everything you have spoken about I have experienced.

First of all, you're trying to get help. That is such a good thing, and you should congratulate yourself for that. It takes serious courage and strength to take that first step, and now that you've taken it, you're on the path to recovery.

I'm not going to tell you that it's all going to be ok. It's not - it will be hard. like, HARD hard! But when you are feeling that pain you need to use it. Hold onto it. Write it dow. Start a journal - for me this was a great start for my recovery. Even just putting in words what you are feeling and thinking (and try to be completely honest in what you write) is good, because it lessens the load on you.

Have you thought about/are you able to go to therapy? I have found it very useful, and though I am still very much a porn addict, I am doing so much better than I was in December. So, so, so, SO much better.

 

3 relapses in 24 hours brought me here.......Based on my 16 years addiction, i say only thing, which worked for me....Dont waste your energy fighting PMO....instead divert it to create something new.....be busy with other activities, which helps you grow like job, gym,meditation,reading,scoialiazing etc

 

been there all I know for sure is you get over it.
things are going to be different 1 month from now 3 months from now a year from now 3 years 5 years.

 

Take your porn recovery one day at a time. Even if you reach 3 days and relapse, that's three days you went without your vices. Be proud of your little achievements, give yourself some credit. You've been through a lot and you made it through each time. I believe you can do it again and always. Best of luck!

 

first you got to understand that nobody is going to come save you. Nobody is going to tell you how to break your addiction because the only person that can really do that is you. End of the day nobody cares about your addiction, nobody is going to pick you up. You have to look at yourself like you are the saviour of your life. And understand that everytime you PMO you are hurting Jesus so much.