The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 7! My tracker is still not updated, I had to log in on reddit from this other browser as I use *** on my main one and nofap is not bypassing!
The urges are still strong but I'm already feeling better and more motivated as right until now the week-end was a big obstacle, but I made it a point to meditate and be active this week-end which I did, and it feels better.

 

Yes, I agree that the sugar intake increases the urges. Last night I ate some sugary things late at night. I couldn't sleep, and then relapsed because I was awake at 2am, had too much sugar-induced restless energy and could not sleep.

In times like this I want to have access to a strong sleeping pill that will just knock me out. Because the consequences of relapse is far too great. Any suggestions?

 

I fell again yesterday. Back to Day 0 for me.

Damn, I am ashamed. I should know better. I am embarrassed to report in and should have done so sooner.

Basically, the emerging pattern is when I drink more than a few drinks and then go to bed late, I wake up craving PMO. This has happened the last couple of weekends.

 

Checking in. Sun is out, taking a midday work break to go ride my bike!

 

Day 2,

Keeping strong! Finals push! To the other students on this page keep strong and good luck!

Best wishes Fellowship!

 

Hi there! Day 4 checking + advice

I wen't offline a couple days in this weekend. I hanged out with some bros, it was a nice time and I could see how this helps me to get through the reboot. This platform is almost heaven for those who want to be free from PMO, but nothing can beat true, deep friendship. It's hard to develop one, I know it myself, but in the moment that you have a bro that you can count on, you have the deepest truthful friendship. I found myself being the luckiest guy to be around other fellas that want to get rid of PMO addiction as well, and having the same objetive helps to get through it. If this website helps us a lot in support and motivation, you can't measure how bigger is this help when it comes from a personal, face to face friendship.

So, I'd like to encourage all of you to develop this kind of relation. You don't need new bros, but only deepen the bonds that already exists. Talk about it, expose yourself without fear of being rejected. If you end up being disapproved, this means that that friend doesn't wants the best for you and you don't have to keep it. I'd also want to enphasize that this is not utterly necessary to be set free, but it HELPS IT - and oh, my fellow brothers, HOW IT HELPS.

PS.: I'm brazilian, so english is not my mother language, and this means that I don't usually know the exact context to use some words. I'd like to know: can I use "relationship" as a synonym for "friendship"? I ask it because the corresponding word for "relationship" in brazilian portuguese can only be used in a romantic context. That's why I didn't used it before, hahahah, it would be quite weird if the meanings were the same.

 

day 37

 

Never had time to log on yesterday, but I am not 2 days clean. Had a moment this morning where I was getting dress and I had my hand on my groin for like 5 seconds. I was not masturbating at all, just resting there, but the thought popped in my head "You know what would feel good right now? A quick MO session." Anyway, when that thought popped in my head, I immediately took my hand off my groin and did some meditating. It was a Hellish 3 minutes as the urge to masturbate rolled over me, but then just like that, my erection was gone, I was relaxed and I had not masturbated or even started. I am not sure why my hand was on my groin in the first place to be honest, but I realized that if I did not remove it, it would not turn out well. I think it may have been instinctual at first, because sometimes I need to adjust, but after that point, leaving it on there for any longer gets into dangerous territory and I am determined to make Friday my last PMO/MO/M ever.

Thank you all!
Best,
Mathman1994

 

Yes here we go! trod on!

 

Nice bro, as soon as lockdown end I am doing same.. still waiting for that moment.
281 days

 

Well, today's been bad.

I relapsed again and had basically a nine hour binge. This is the worst I've done in years.

It started with a hot chick sunbathing out the window. I thought I could handle it. Then I started fantasizing. Then fishing around 2 pm. Then browsing P and writing pornographic fiction until 11pm (yeah, weird, but apparently this is part of my own personal version of PMO addiction).

I should have been reading and doing other things. I should have gone on at least two more walks. I missed a beautiful day, among other things.

I thought I'd gotten at least serious enough so that a major binge like this would not happen again. I was wrong. It got me.

I feel like a piece of crap. But I know indulging in such feelings can be/is part of the addiction cycle. So enough self-indulgence. I'll report back tomorrow.

If you're tempted right now, don't do it!

 

Day 29!

 

Day 29 check-in (Attempt 4) - The Ford of Bruinen

 

Day 6
I guess I have upgraded to uruk-hai.
Feels good

 

Day 4 complete!

The urges were through the roof today. I wasted a lot of time battling them. One friend did something that made me angry, and I had an argument with another one, which together left me feeling rather dejected. I knew, though, I knew that PMO would make me feel so much worse, and I was angry at myself for even thinking about it. Honestly, that helped. Anger can be constructive.

My chores are falling behind--tonight I did laundry, but the kitchen is desperately in need of a cleaning! I finally got around to editing a paper for a friend, though, which was something I promised to do a couple days ago. Tomorrow I must work! No dopamine distractions, no stupid PMO.

@til_im_free "Relationship" is usually romantic. If you just say "My relationship needs work" people will think it's romantic. But if you say "I have a good relationship with my father" and you're clear who it's about, that's fine too. Your English is good!

 

Checking in on Day 142.

 

Thanks for the encouragement and advice! Yesterday I was in bed fairly late, but I drank no coffee too late and also I did not have usual dark chocolate after dinner. I read books in bed and finally just went to sleep. On physical tiredness - yes I totally agree, and I shall be starting to hit the gym pretty soon. Push some weights and that should help feeling tired after the day. Also I get up at 4:30am again this morning so that should kick this sleep pattern back into gear!

As for the urges and the suffering. Yes, I have just been listening to 'man's searh for meaning' and in the suffering there is meaning. I am looking very hard now for deeper answers and more meaning and my mind is bringing them up, and I am writing them down, I may start a journal on here pretty soon.

Getting back on it,

4:30am

 

Day 3 in progress!
The weather is amazing and this week is going to be fun. Stay strong everyone!
Much love