The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Not being honest with yourself; living with a split mind; Surfing with your inner eye closed to the real intentions behind your surfing; searching for what you tell yourself is innocent, harmless, whatever, but really there's a monster behind your search; turning a blind eye to the abnormal desire that lurks beneath your so called "normal" intentions; failure to check the idea you just had and ask can this lead to anything even remotely erotic; in my case watching movies that I haven't checked on commonsense media first; flirting with danger; playing with fire and the ultimate precursor to a relapse - Lot's wife man, Lot's wife...

 

No PMO: Day 9

 

I need an advice, here are much knowledge, that is the reason i always ask here.

Is just a question , what if i want to search music videos with insinuations, is dangerous to do that?.

 

What an inspiring figure

 

Highly dangerous yes. I think some people can and not be triggered and I have but it is playing with fire for us here for sure. Not recommended sry.

 

Thanks

 

First *head nod*.

As far as suggestions, I find that guided meditations are very relaxing for me. Having done them I can just sit and talk with my wife or I can just sit and listen to music and sing along to whatever it is (usually "tribal music"). I also have been spending some time working on puzzles (using an app) while listening to music. Looking back I am just comfortable doing little things. The mediations helped a lot with this.

Well, that is all that I can muster up at the moment. I am sure there are plenty of things. Good luck! Also, the book route will be promising, providing they don't have triggering content. I started a book series in my sobriety. Had to stop because the author loved to explain the anatomy of a woman just too much.

 

Day 149. Trying to navigate the online dating scene has proved difficult during my reset. It's tricky to not get overly invested in something. I have gotten a lot better at dealing with this as time has gone on. As I approach day 150 I am definitely feeling ready to become sexually active once again.

 

Great. Thank you.

 

290 days

 

Day 38

 

Day 38 check-in (Attempt 4) - Hithaeglir, the Misty Mountains.

 

Day 0.

No porn, just masturbation and orgasm. This one feels especially painful because of the circumstances; it involved a lot of deliberate fantasizing. I wasn't overcome by urges; I set out with intention of masturbating. I'm such an idiot. It made me realize again, though, just how disgusting and damaging this behavior is. I'm going to do whatever it takes to overcome my PMO addiction because I can't stand to have those thoughts ever again.

St. Francis of Assisi, pray for us.

 

Day zero,
Yesterday I’ve broken and shattered. I’ve working on some stuff and yesterday was just too hard.
I’ve woken up today in a better feeling and did not slip this morning. Lets hope the rest of the day go’s smooth.

 

Checking in on Day 151.

 

Day 7 Check in

 

Checking in.

St. Lucy, pray for us!

 

Day 7

 

1 day. Started intermittent fasting yesterday. Felt great yesterday evening. Was really hungry this morning. Had my black coffee and it fixed it right up. Hoping fasting will help break this demon of pmo.

 

295 days the stairs of Cirith Ungol
370 days no PMO, semen retention