Accountability for All

thanks man! this helped.

especially this!

 

Day 13 report

My God... You would not believe the day I've had. I went on quite the little adventure today. With the parrot...

As you may know, I've been doing some light bonding exercises with him outside on our balcony. This time around it took a turn for the worse when he perched himself on the railing. Usually I'm able to grab him with no trouble at all, that is until he decided to fly way down over to the building directly across from us an entire block away.
As I saw him gliding across all I could think to myself was "...fuck"


So yeah. My heart dropped to my sphincter after seeing that.

Thankfully I was able to convince the security guard of that building to let me in and convinced the management ladies to let me look around and convinced the tenants to let me in their home to get the bird from their balcony and finally convinced the bird to come back home with me.

So fucking embarrassing. Needless to say we won't be doing anything on the balcony anymore .

Yeah I needed to hear that. Good to be reminded. I'm feeling much better today and not at all like I'm a lunatic . Although I did help myself to my favorite cognac after the whole escapade with the shit-for-brains bird LoL.

 

Day 17 in the books!

 

bro delete all these triggers asap, they are not worth it.
and you are doing good man, remember that.
but you can still do SO MUCH BETTER.
cmon man!

 

I relapsed one day ago, but don't forget. You can do it man.

 

Day 4 done, I'm on full day fasting, feeling low on energy, there was no peeking today. It's got to be easy on day 4 and day 5.

@corylife please get back on track man. So good untill now, just get back

 

Day 14 Report.

Nothing noteworthy to report today. Did buy myself the new Nier: Replicant ver 1.22474487139 so had fun with that for a while. Couldn't really enjoy it as much as I thought I would though.

Gave my parrot (and myself ) a break from bonding exercises for today.

Been experiencing this lull of sadness both last night and today. Oh well. I'm doing the right thing, so it doesn't matter I guess.

 

Day 18 in the books!

 

Day 5 : day 3 was much harder for me, I think now day 7 or 11 might be hard. Good luck to all of you out there

 

relapsed.

 

Back at it bro!

 

DAY 2 : I had urges and then I remembered this conversation. Let's do this

 

Day 15 Report

Second covid shot... Can't move left arm... Feeling weak.... No urges... No nothin'... Help meh plz ....

 

Day 19 in the books!

 

Day 6 : easy as expected. Most importantly I didn't peek. Killed few urges to peek. So I need to watchout for turbulent days around day9.
@yrjyrj : time to get back brother, please note to beat and get longer streaks, looks like monkey mind tries to trick your vigilant awareness. 4_7_8 breathing helps well, only thing you need to decide is no matter how far you are in urge, decide not to relapse, bounce back with breathing exercise. I noted that i don't have usual regret that led to release after breathing well. After 1-2 days even feels stronger as I have beaten the urge successfully

 

Hey guys , happy to see all the progress here, i am reading , liking every comment here. Feeling bit of lull these days , usually starts around 2nd week of relapse . Thats the reason i dont comment/reply often. One thing that has been helping me is filling each day with multitude of tasks that i love like guitar, chess , yoga etc . I am trying not to have a monotonous life and its really giving me results. Each day i am getting better in my hobbies which really inspires me . I hope you guys find your real life interests and grow each day. This virtual shit is of no use.

 

DAY 3 : road to a week let's gooo