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Hello friend, don't be too hard on yourself for if you truly are an addict, you are powerless over your actions. It's almost impossible to overcome addiction alone, and I believe that there are those rare people out there who can do it on self will, but the vast majority of addicts have zero power over addictive behaviours. I hate to be the barer of this bad news, but I am sure you ultimately realise this.

Now Nofap is great, but do not use it as your crutch through recovery, first of all it's on the one thing that allows us to view porn, but secondly it should be used as one of your pilllars to fighting addiction. I love Nofap and the community here, but it is but a tool in my recovery, not the be all and end all. I recommend, like myself, seeking out Sex Addicts Anonymous. I ahve been going to meetings for 1.5 years, I have recently started to work throguh the 12 Steps of recovery, and although I am not quite there yet (mainly because I want it my own way and stop following the programme set out throguh the 12 steps), I am definitely on the upwards trajectory. https://saa-recovery.org/ This is the website for SAA, you will find all of their literature on here, be able to find a meeting in your area if there is one, and if not many many tele and zoom meetings of which you can participate. Most importantly you will be able to find people like yourself, like me and many others who are in the same boat. Many from all different backgrounds, but all united in a fellowship of addicts to help one another.

I am only putting this here as a suggestion, ultimately it's up to you what you do, but I recommend attending some meetings and finding out for yourself. All you need is to be honest with yourself and others about your addictive behaviour andyour powerlessness over it. Open-mindedness to a new way of living life, getting rid of ways of old ways and starting out with a tough but simple path. Finally willingess, a willingness to give up fighting by yourself, accept help of others and start a simple programme that has being proven by so many in our situation to work if onbly we give ourselves over to it.

I hope this helps, if you need any more information then feel free to message me. Good luck friend, it's in your hands.

 

Well in terms of the meetings, think of Alcoholics Anonymous meetings, you work through a script and each person gets a chance to share their experiences, whether that week or over time, it's all about just being united in recovery of sexual addictions. It has reading from the Green Book (SAA Book) and some meetings have readings of the Big Book (AA Book). It's all just about finding advice, understanding how to live in sobriety, because the problem isn't overcoming addiction, it's living without it. We use it when we're happy, we use it when we're bored, we use it when we're sad or angry and that has warped the mind. We seek it out as comfort, and without it we have to come to understand and live with emotion instead of blocking it out with the high. SAA helps people understand how to.