The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 42 check-in (Attempt 4) - The pass of Caradhras

 

Day 2 check in

 

Day 4.

So far so good.

One of the big things that is helping me right now is that I’ve installed the “spin” browser on my phone that lock sites like 9Gag that are super triggering for me. I know I can bypass it if I want to, but these are the kind of sites that just having to do one more step kind of make it not worth it. And it’s such a good life to live without fishing.

@crazyhorse11, I’m so sorry. It’s like when you a movie where the gay gets hit in the balls and the entire male audience flinch because they also feel that pain. I think this whole community feel your pain right now. But I just want to make sure you know that even if right now you don’t feel like a winner, you are. And everyone else can see that right now and are super proud of you.

 

Caught myself fishing tonight. Feeling pretty low. Not giving in.

 

Day 11
Doing ok, lot of urges, but this thread helps

 

Checking in on Day 155.

 

Day 16 in progress, I am a Hobbit again!
Can you change my rank @RiseToGreatness? Thank you!
I have noticed that I feel very grubby (I don't know if this is the right word), when I don't shave on time.
I wanted to shave a couple days ago, but I couldn't find the time and now I don't feel very positive/clean/comfortable.
How do others feel about this?
I am going to shave today and hope it makes me feel a bit better.

Aside from the above, I feel very good!
Have a great day everyone! Much love!

 

299 days the stairs of Cirith Ungol
374 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 153. Still feeling urges but pushing through. I definitely have made a lot of progress with handling my urges constructively.

 

Fell again last night. Might be falling with porn but I am golfing or practicing my singing every night. Doing my dishes daily. Doing my fasting. God will lift this from me one day. One day I will be graced with the strength to overcome this. Need to persevere in building good habits. Maybe God needs to see I am serious about bettering myself before He graces me with sobriety. I will get through this one day at a time.

 

Day 2

 

Checking in Day 24

 

Day 12

Failed

Started with some fantasies, cravings got bigger and bigger and I managed somehow to turn on my computer in emergency mode so I gained website internet. Then it was supereasy to fail my streak ;P
However gonna start again pretty soon. Today for sure. Just need to create much stronger plan so I go more deep. I guess I gonna throw out video games completely and limit movie usage to 3 hours per day to force me to do more things without using computer

 

Still in day 0
The urges now are pursuit me, trying to stole what i left on energy.

Back off urges!

 

Day 18, Last night I had a big urge, but then I watched a video about nofap and the urges and then I talked to someone by the phone and that really helped me to overcome it , so another day made by little decisions on the way to make the big decision to regain my freedom far from PMO. God Bless You All Brothers and Sisters

 

I wanted to masturbate this morning, and I still feel the chaser effect and want to think it would be okay after sex last night. It would not. I looked at reasons I had listed not to in my handwritten journal. I am going to go do something for the house, like mopping the sewage residue off the basement floor. That should make me feel less romantic with myself. Haha

 

I will try to stop using CPU/Phone during morning till afternoon. So basically I gonna try to force myself to either be really productive or just go outside. I think that should really change the situation of cravings. I do remember like I used to spent half day outside : there was no single cravings. And I gonna delete myself from movies/games for 30 days I think straight. Let's keep moving forward

 

I really like your decision, brother. I hope it works out for you!

 

Day 256, checking in.