90 PM challenge

Hey all I'm ready for a change. Going head first into the 90 day PM-Mode challenge. I've been watching porn and masturbating since I was little, I can't even remember the age, when I found out that I could hit that dopamine button and all my problems would go away in that moment, I was a done for... and I'm 29....I used it to deal with my emotional problems and with boredom. I Don't know a life without it and that makes me worried and kind of hate myself for that. I should be able to stop, I need to stop to show myself that I control my self and my emotions and urges. I can do this.

Wish me luck! I wish all of you luck!

 

Day two, I went out yesterday and there were some fine women per usual out. This triggered me to want to PM but I withheld, This morning was tough. I found myself in a half sleep state and my hands gravitated to my funstick as if there was some unseen force. when I touched it I immediately said no and backed off. But the whole day has been me fighting the urge. Need to go on more walks and stay away from the computer when I can. I should probably keep my hands busy.

 

How have you been? on day four and its been good so far but urges are coming and going especially when i wake up. Basically need to slap myself from automatically not do it lol but we have held up.