The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 11

 

Day 7
Beginning to struggle. The second week is always so hard for me. Then after 14-15 days I typically hit flatline, where urges are less physical and more emotional. I really want to be a hobbit. It is rare for me to reach 15 days PMO free.

 

Day 7 , i feeled exhausted in the begining of the day , but now i feel good again.

 

Day 93 Copmleted

 

Rise to Greatness
Brother you are spread lots of positivity for us
I want to say thanks from depth of my heart ❤
*Sorry for English writing because english is not my mother tongue

 

I say a farewell to all. I have gained what I could in this challenge. It has provided me much motivation that I needed just a few months ago. Now, my motivation lays elsewhere. I really wanted to rank up to "White Wizard". The desire for that title was what kept me going for quite some time. Now, I know, personally, that I am what keeps me going. My life is all the reason I need to keep going, that is not from a selfish standpoint, but from the understanding that all my capabilities are within me and doesn't align with any external entities.

I have seen many relapses while reading through the pages of this challenge and it is truly disheartening, and I hope everyone will get out sooner than later. I will say one thing, while it has been determined that stress has been a big factor, that doesn't mean that a relapse is inevitable. The understanding that stress and relapses are correlated should bring with it the opportunity to change it. There is one step between stress and relapsing, and that is choice. You still have a choice whenever you are stressed, you are not powerless.

I wish you all the best! It has been fun and I appreciate all the support, even likes have their influential powers. One love.

 

Day 30 complete!

 

308 days dwarf king
383 days no PMO, semen retention

I almost forgot to post my streak today I'm so not tempted to PMO that I forgot about my streak.

 

Day 41 trod on!

 

Another day with some meditation, some running, pull ups and climbing, some soul searching and cycling and double cold shower! Feel, like I 've done my duty for today and deserved a good rest.

 

Day 30 my brothers! I can say once agin that it was no piece of cake... not because it was hard...but because I made it hard ) pun intended. I still have a long way ahead of me until I am able to stand tall and stand proud! External motivation is lacking, but fortunately, the elder stoics where in the same boat as me and already helping me through this journey! I will leave you with a quote that helped me today:
"You don't have to turn THIS into something. It doesn't have to upset you!"

 

That's what I'm talking about! Nice!

 

Checking in Friends
No P Day 182
No M Day 11
No O Day 11

• I commit to stay off devices after work and turn to books, boardgames (just bought a solo boardgame for this purpose), exercise, visiting people, etc... instead - summer is coming so I intend to embrace it (the only exceptions to this are if I am watching a sports match, which will be about once a fortnight, checking in here, buying something necessary, or doing Freedom Fight)

Match tonight

• I am renewing my commitment to stop fishing and bounce my thoughts words eyes and actions any time they bring me close to triggers

Bounced eyes again today

• I commit and have decided to finish forever with narcissistic pride, which is the mother of lust. This will include being accountable for when I am - mindless - unkind - foolish - boasting - stealing the limelight - vain - arrogant - hypocritical - delinquent - impatient - capricious - habitual etc...

Aware today; not unkind but not proactively kind either; had a lapse in eating as I had a packet of sweets and acted foolish thereafter; not boasting; did not take people up on invite to join a group chat; not hypocritical today; patient enough; did my duty; no urges today as I think I am still flatlining; breathed the fresh air tonight while out on a jog and looked up at the stars moon and dark blue sky and allowed the natural feeling of gratitude to arise

• I commit to looking after myself and dominating procrastination, and being held accountable for this here too

Sticking to system

Cold Shower - Yes

Exercise - Yes

Reflections - No - I need to get back into better reflections

Procrastination - No

Vanity - No

Excuses - None today - keeping my head down - staying normal

Mindful Breathing - Yes!

Sleep Pattern - up early

Mindful Eating - Not today unfortunately

Personal values - I am a normal bloke and happy to be so

 

Checking in. Just worked out! Now for a cold shower!

 

Day 6.

 

Day 5 - I started to look up attractive models, but I closed my device before much time passed, and I considered what I would do next. I was dealing with strong urges, whether to masturbate to any models I might find, or to MO without any visual stimuli. In the end, I did neither. I did a brief 1 minute meditation where I messaged my temples and then the urges were gone. I had not MO'd or PMO'd. Other than the first few photos that came up of the non-nude models, I did not spend much time looking, let alone fishing for more. I am proud of myself, though slightly disappointed that I even put in the search terms, but alas, we cannot always help the initial action as it is done impulsively, but we can close the browser, and we can take a step back and think for a few minutes to consider whether it is worth MOing or PMOing (and for those wondering, I consider P-subs to be PMOing if masturbated to).

Anyway, good night all!
Best,
Mathman1994