Addicted also to authoring one's own erotic stories?

I have been addicted to porn for years but also writing my own erotic stories. I often find that I struggle mightily to find just the sort of porm video which presses my buttons, which actually does help me avoid PMO because sometimes I just don't find what I want, but then sometimes I resort to writing erotic stories. Just for my own consumption. I rarely even store them, just the act of writing them is what I've been addicted to.

What makes it even stranger is I have a particular "character " I have devised, a female character, who stars in each of these stories and I usually write some variation on the exact same scenario. Somehow that constitutes enough novelty for me each time I have done it.

I often find it dramatically more thrilling than porn...maybe because an active imagination is more alive than a prerecorded video.

Anyway I think it is probably equally if not more problematic for me to be doing as it wastes my sexual energy just like porn does. Just felt like writing about it as I get the impression it is not common for people to be addicted to writing stories vs. Watching porn.