THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

day 35 semen retention

 

day 46 check in.

 

Sorry to see you back on day 1. But your progress is not gone!

 

392 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 20, going well.

 

Day 60 check-in (Attempt 4) - Super Saiyan.

 

Day 28, checking in!

 

36 days, we move

 

state: GREEN ('m not alone so I can't relapse)

Day 4
In a few hours it will be 5

 

check in on day 47

 

393 days no PMO, semen retention

 

5 days no porn, subs or masturbation

A little drunk, so between green and yellow
But still very dedicated. Flashbacks now and then but not really urges. Well, I went through some emotional stuff and that may still effect me later on. Feeling such emotions as guilt, powerlessness, dis-connection, tiredness, weariness and fatigue can trigger sexual fantasies in the mind and/or arousal in the body. Or it least it sets an expectation of some kind of relief and the best relief my addicted mind knows, is pmo.

A little drunk and chaotic. But luckily no arousal at all. Otherwise I would be in dangerous waters now. Technically I'm in yellow, because I could start acting out right now. But really, this time I don't feel any urge to do so. I'm emphasizing this because I had times where I wrote long posts like this but inside me the urges built up and then I went from the forum straight to internet porn and pmo. As they say: the road to hell is parved with good intentions.

But since I have recognized that, it's possible to overcome it! Oh yeah, that's my bottom line here: nevertheless how many times you repeated your mistakes, it's possible to rewrite it all, as long as you recognize what has happened and a strong desire to change and overcome ..

I'm doing things a little bit different these days. That's enough for the reboot process: doing things just a little bit different. Sometimes I feel like a little boy: powerlessness and stupid (not the positive aspects of being young). But that's ok. I need to go through this valley. The valley don't have to be all bad, rather it's a question of my mindset and behavior. But of course you can't expect to walk through that valley and reach the beautiful sea without dry spells. Just take it as it is and don't look back.

 

starting again, Day 1
good luck everybody!

 

Day 18

 

day 37

 

Day 61 check-in (Attempt 4) - Super Saiyan.

 

What is the meaning of saiyan....

 

I am in day 1