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Can anyone give my advice?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Deleted Account, May 24, 2021.

  1. iwontfail67

    iwontfail67 Fapstronaut

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    The whole “what if I’m attracted to them” and checking to see if you are is not escalation anymore. Escalation got you into the mess, but you’re continuing to fuel it by checking everyday and doing compulsions to try and make you better. It’s OCD. False attractions happen.
     
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  2. Yeah i understand, except I tried to accept the thoughts and not fight them and at the end I came to the conclusion that I'm no longer asking if I am but I know
     
  3. iwontfail67

    iwontfail67 Fapstronaut

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    OCD will make you feel like it’s as real as possible. The fact that being a pedo is absolutely terrible only fuels OCD even more because it knows it’s such a bad and wrong thing.
     
  4. Learner09

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    STOP RESPONDING TO YOUR BRAIN IT WILL HELP IN HOCD...
    AND I AM AFRAID BECAUSE SOMETIME POCD ALSO RESULTS IN DEPRESSION ...PERSON FEELS SHAMEFUL AND GUILTY which results to depression ...but u dont have to panic..

    Just improve your lifestyle eat healthy do regular exercise and dont worry much
    ..
     
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  5. Yeah, I also know that it amplifies the feelings. I know theres nothing wrong with thinking a little girl is cute, I mean we're human we know some people look cuter than others, its the arousal that worries me or makes it real
     
  6. It's hard to not panic when it feels real. Are you cured of hocd?
     
  7. Learner09

    Learner09 Fapstronaut

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    No . But I know that it is very easy to give advice but hard to follow .
     
  8. Guys I will stop testing myself with these mental rituals. I have made a pact with myself that I will stop watching porn and resisting urges to do checking rituals.

    I relaized that no matter what I will get some sort of arousal or feel some attraction due to the fact that Im checking for arousal. At the end of the day, a little girls face is cute but shouldn't be sexual. Im starting to believe my huge fear of pedophilia is fueling this "attraction" through OCD and porn may have caused escalation.
     
  9. HelperX

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    Dude, are you ready for the hard truth? You don't even know what happened to me.

    All due to 2 things = OCD and porn + masturbation < masturbation + porn is what causes fucked thoughts.

    Can you believe it? My brain generated bestiality thoughts without me ever watching a single bestiality video in my life.
    Why did my brain think about wanting to fuck a horse when I've never ever watched a bestiality video? Why a horse? Why putting together thoughts like that outta my will, who the fuck is inside us? What the hell is all of this?

    Porn + masturbation caused me all these fucked up thoughts and even fucked thoughts involving kids. It happened few times that I would watch a porn video, the brain would generate a thought involved a kid outta nowhere. Never ever watched a video involving a young girl in my life. I have no attraction, of course, to young girls.

    I once had small erections when those thoughts would appear, but listen clearly to me, they were all fake erections, they were all erections that happened out of scare and anxiety. You are probably thinking if you are attracted to kids, NO, you are NOT! It's the OCD kicking in making you uncomfortable of something and therefore making you doing something out of anxiety. That OCD was fueled by the fucked up thoughts induced by porn.

    My brain is weird. Everything went down after I started masturbating. I've never masturbated from 14 years old to 20 years old, only would watch porn. But then at 20 years old I thought, hey I've never seen my sperm, let me try masturbation and so I did. Masturbation and my brain aren't 2 things that go together, literally. It all went down after roughly 2 years of masturbation + porn, my brain literally changed how I see things. The eyes of people like wanting to go out, look bright, the body look like meat, my brain gave me also cannibalistic thoughts.
    On instagram I see the models like that. The fuck is all of this, I've never even thought the brain could be capable of such.


    Tell me, how and why the brain can do all that shit. It's like a demon being in my brain.

    Look what porn and OCD has caused me?

    There might be something wrong with the human brain. Porn is an evil bullshit that I don't know why it even exists. It causes so many fucked up things in the brain.

    So stop worring about those thoughts, it's the OCD wanting you to do things you don't want to. Simply stay away from porn. I'm free from porn since almost 3 days, recovery is probably gonna be long to fully recover my brain, and if I ever see a porn studio I will destroy it entirely with my own hands for what these bastards did to me and are doing to millions of people out there.


     
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  10. HelperX

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    Also, look what else porn + masturbation + OCD caused me to have:

    I have snake-like movements going from head down to my spine. You can see them here ( drawings by me ):

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    In the middle, you can see that I wrote "sensazioni di freddo", whic means cold feelings in italian ( I'm italian ), in particular cold wind. Yes, I feel cold winds sometimes around my body, for no reason, even with windows closed or no electric fan on.
    In the bottom, you can see how people look to me, eyes like bulb, focus on the folds of an arms like my brain is watching meat. The fuck is all of this? Can science explain all of this bullshit?

    Also, sometimes horizontal lines appear from nowhere like I'm in the matrix.

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    I repeat, what is all of this? I have no idea what I'm going through, hopefully everything will turn back to normal once my brain recovery is completed.
     
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  11. Thank you for sharing your story bro. I also used to have weird sensations. And you're right, it has to be OCD + masturbating. The reason why I feel like Im attracted to little girls or at least I hope its fake attraction is because I can tell that they are cute, right? We can all see if someone if good looking or not. But I think porn has twisted my perception of women causing me to see younger faces as "attractive" when really its just me over examing it causing reactions
     
  12. Randy Andy

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    I can't give you advice because I'm told not to and it's a bad idea. I can tell you my experience.
    I'd advise doing something rather than talking.
     
  13. Randy Andy

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    Also I can tell you that I spent years trying to get fixed and "do something about this" ineffectually and vacillating between thinking I had done more than could be expected if me versus thinking I was a loser who should blah blah but when something similar occurred in my life I started doing things differently and practicing the solution like my life depended on it because it did. And it still does.
     
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