I have cut down a lot since before my brain injury in 2019, the only time I do it now is usually at night before bed after work. The only thing that makes me feel bad about doing it is I feel that what I am fapping to is not socially acceptable and what I watch is not actually porn, I prefer to have cam sex which is real but the reason for doing this is because I want to connect with a female because I love females and hope that one day I will have a really nice girlfriend. What I do when I use the cam sites is I like to talk to girls that are dominant and only because for some reason I like to be humiliated and teased, I also like girls that have got really nice lips and things like this get me off but I have got social anxiety so never had a girlfriend but if I could have one I would be aiming high. I want to stop doing this because I do not think it will help me at all and I have learned it will take at least 90 days. I want to take up running again and find new hobbies that can take my time up because I am more likely to do it when I am at home bored on the computer.
When you stop for a month, you will he amazed at all the time you have. However you need to have some goals and hobbies so you can replace the time you spent on porn and cam sites with activity that will help you regain your self esteem. Social anxiety and low confidence regarding women can be overcome if you put the work in. Coach Corey Wayne on youtube has all of the answers and approaches you need.
You are correct in this statement. It doesn't help you. You can stop it and you will. Start by changing one thing, and then another and then another. Good luck!