[7-CHALLENGE] THE SEVEN DAYS CHALLENGE !

Relapsed today.... Day 0....

 

Day 2
I can recommend reading a book Havard Mela - how to thrive in 21st century by avoiding porn

I got sloppy this morning but luckily stopped right on time.
I need to exercise the break strategy when it comes to urges - once the craving for masturbation hits me I will take 10deep breaths and try to consciously think what are my nofap goals and why its important.

 

Day 0
P and P-subs offer nothing but temporary, empty pleasure and I'm always left with regret afterwards having engaged in that behaviour. I'm not giving up anything when I abstain from PMO since it offers nothing worthwhile

 

Day 3/7. Pressing forward...As the weather is getting warmer here and people (including me) are slowly getting less clad (feels like broken English, idk it's not my native lang), it's becoming tougher to resist. But I'm going to make it. Because it's worth it.

 

I am in. [ day 0 as per rules]

 

3/7

 

Congratulations Yash.

 

Day 1/one of 7/seven. I relapsed yesterday also but I woke up early and studied a lot of English, I also read some programming and this was good for me too, and I wrote in NoFap. Today I woke up early again and I am writing here which is a victory. The reason I probably relapsed again last midnight is that I didn't make the choice to avoid PMO again. Every time you relapse you broke the mental promises you make to yourself, and then takes some time to recover. My best streak here is the first, because the pressure and the productivity was also high.

Now, there is no possibilities for errors, I have friends that are supporting me, I have a good family that wants the best to me, I have a lot of time to use in good things. Now it's do or do not. Blockers are installed and I'm disciplined. I'll do this.

 

Day 1/7 completed

 

//Day 1
Yesterday was harder than I tougth because I'm used to relapse continiously after one time, but I managed to resist and continue my journey, today I will do one work for university and also do some programming, at nigth I will go to the gym, If I get an urge I will take a cold shower, Thanks to the people who liked this post it made me feel supported, have a good day everyone.

 

Here on my 3rd day! Still feeling blue, but things will get better, I'm sure of that.

I had a slip-up this morning watching nudes from an ex-girlfriend, but I won't let this change my mind and distract me from my goals... Stay strong!

 

day 0/7 relapse again today

 

I failed again -> what can I learn from this one?
Well I feel like its quite the same as always. A bit different.
Add block works great! I no longer have the easy access and see the trigerring stuff all over the place.
I am happy that I started to read book about breaking the habit of porn/masturbation addiction.
Thats good steps.
But at the end I failed again after 3days, which seems like the absolutely unbeatable level so far.
What can I do better?
Or what actually happened?

I think everything started with visualisation - I visualized my ideal day. And ofc I visualized some absolutely normal passionate sex encounters -> that might have trigerred the sick fuck in me. I definetely noticed some sexual thoughts here and there but I was pretty busy in the morning/afternoon and even late afternoon. Noticed some more intense thoughts while late afternoon chore. I couldnt engange physically but I kept playing with it in my head.
First it was just light stuff and I engaged -> lets play a bit but stop at time -> THATS FUCKING BULLSHIT -> YOU CANT STOP AT TIME -> OR YOU CAN FOR SOME TIME, BUT EVENTUALLY YOU CANT -> SO STOP DOING THAT -> JUST NOTICE THE URGE AND USE THE BREATHING TECHNIQUE FOR THE FIRST FUCKING TIME AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS, BECAUSE YOU JUST NEVER TRY THAT SHIT -> ALWAYS JUST WRITE ABOUT THE STRATEGIES, BUT WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT YOU DONT DO ANYTHING OF IT AND JUST LAY STRAIGHT ON BED, FACE DOWN AND PRONE MASTURBATE IMAGINING STUFF ABSOLUTELY FUCKED UP....

Yeah the problem is I never try the strategy. I am always like, fuck it, just do it, try again. If I never try my best and always give up, I cant learn anything new, which is why I am on the 2-4days streaks since basically forever.

It wasnt even boredom. I had stuff to do -> was going to sauna and I absolutely love that. But I just decided that I am going to fap and there was just nothing that can stop me. I didnt want to stop myself.

So next time when this happen I will stop myself, I mean will stop, notice my surroudings, deep breaths 10x at least and than will consicously say to myself why its important to stop playing with absolutely fucked up images that objectifies women, treat them like things, absolute garbage, because I am no longer turned by normal stuff, I need that fucked up images from the porn scenes I still remember and obv cant unremember.
The reason why I need to stop is basically this:
1) I am killing my dick by prone masturbation - if I masturbated normally I probably wouldnt be so dedicated to quit
2) I feel like shit, no energy, after relapses, no motivation, just fuck everything attitude
3) I think its not normal to visualize what I have to visualize to be able to get done
4) I want to see what happens when I am clean for 7days and eventually 3months
5) I would love to see women as human being and not just these things are here for my sex fantasies

 

On day 5

 

Day 3/7

 

Day 4/7.

 

4/7
let's beat this challenge!

 

Day 4 completed.

 

Day 2

 

Today is Day 1.

Right now, I got an urge. Must be because I drank many soft drinks yesterday. WhenI woke up this morning, I had a soft drink. Still didn't have any food. Go figure.

I'm just happy I found another trigger that can make me PMO.

Hopefully, I'll quit sugar for life.