New to this.

Hi everyone,

I hope you're doing alright in your recovery journey. As for me, I've just started mine and I would like to share how I'm doing so far.

There are so many questions!

So, I've been reading all of the stories posted here and I decided to start the 30 day NoFap challenge, mostly because since I was a little kid I discovered the pleasures of stimulating your privates. Thanks to high speed Internet, I entered the world of porn at the age of 14 (14 years ago, I'm 28 now).

Since I was 19 I noticed an ever increasing need to watch more and more porn to get aroused and I started noticing a decreasing libido. The worst part was when I had my first sexual experience: I could not get my penis hard. I mean, during the foreplay I had a normal erection and everything seemed to follow its natural course but when the time to get serious came, I just lost my "power" to never get it back.


Even though my partner was very understanding, I felt humiliated. Then time passed and I started another relationship in which I could enjoy a quasi normal sex life i.e. I could actually get an erection and penetrate but I had to keep thinking about porn scenes to maintain the erection and sometimes, even though I did that, it would just disappear.

Time passed and now I've been single for 4 years, give or take, because of the constant fear of failing my partner and about two months ago, I discovered that my problem is a PIED (my doctor said everything was fine with me).


So, 15 days ago, I decided to stop masturbating to see if everything I've read so far is true. I can tell you I've seen some improvements, I'm starting to get morning woods, although not on a daily basis, I don't feel an urge to go watch porn, but Sometimes I catch myself starting to play with my penis but I stop it right away, I won't lie, I've "accidentally" seen nudes on the internet but not because I deliberately went to a website and look for them, you know, friends send you links to check some "cool stuff" or even on Facebook you stumble upon semi nudity and I fear that might interfere with my rebooting.

Any thought would be very much appreciated. And sorry for the long post!

I have no banana for scale. ):

 

Thank you!