THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

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Hey guys,
haven't posted in a while but I'm back.
I haven't been doing great, there have been a few arguments still and I have peeked at P a few times to escape the negative emotions.
I haven't fully relapsed as I came to my senses and left on every instance but still bad. And it's interesting to see how after a very long streak P is still trying to creep its way back. But I won't let it because I don't want to. I don't want to be drawn to the thing that hurts me again. I saw this video today and it helped me calm down:

I'll also take the time to write my thoughts and reason about my relationship so I can have some conversations with my girlfriend to sort things out one way or another, which is something I have been avoiding. I want to address the root cause of this pain and resolve it so I can go back to a huge clean streak and better, healthier, happier days.

 

Day 9

 

Checking in!

 

day 45, time to level up

 

Day 3 checking in after a long time

 

Day 0

 

402 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Checking in ! Day 136 free of MO. Day 208 free of porn.

 

Day 30, finally got to Oozaru level, feeling pretty good about that.

 

Day 10

 

Forgot to report yesterday, sorry about that.
Day #3 Checking In

 

That's right man.
Reject PMO, return to Monke.

 

Checking in!

 

day 46 SR

 

Checking in. Day one again.
My episode of relapsing corresponded with quitting accountability. Although I saw how I got more and more corrupted and thought a little about it, I didn't make the effort to sit down and write about it.
One time I decided to stop relapsing and wrote a short post here, but I still allowed myself to "maybe" return to one specific fantasy/video (and "not more than that"). I was free of urges for most of that day but then I chose that option and watched the specific video again. That resulted in another binge

Now I'm through with this shit and rn I have no serious urges. On the other hand I have to be very careful already bc I recently trained my brain to use porn all the time ...

I think I should write some more text. Not a novel about my addiction but some guidelines. You know, tell myself the reasons again and give myself hope and conviction.

 

Day 4!