35 and older accountability, Group 2

I used porn this week.

 

I struggle with this too. My best streaks have come when I am focused on my health, eating well, exercise and not using porn. For me, bad food choices and porn are linked. Sometimes the bad food choices indicate my emotional stress and susceptibility to porn, or I used food to numb out after porn to avoid feeling shame.

 

Hey guys. Hope y’all are doing well. I’ve been having a lot of short streaks lately. This week has been good. I hope that I put this vacation to use and rest well.

 

Exactly the same. I have generally an all or nothing personality. So when I'm on it I'm on it.

 

I am the same. I do my best when I’m eating healthy and focused in all areas of my life. It’s so hard though and requires external circumstances to not mess things up too much.

 

Please be selfish about relaxing. We are all tired from this last year and must take care of ourselves even more.

 

had a challenging past few days.

Last month I started to drink coffee again after taking 6 months off.

It started with lots of feeling of excitement and productivity but then I noticed i lost that initial high within 2 weeks, then i felt the effects gets lower and lower and I started to need more and more again.

I was also spending so much time in the sun and overtrained my body - and under ate, then on wed i totally crashed, and body was aching and headaches and every thing,

I was reminded that coffee doesn't server me and I need to let it go again, also had been smoking few cigarettes last couple of weeks on Sat/Sundays, and this 2 days head ache and body ache, was another confirmation that that doesn't server me, so I through it all in garbage again.

The challenge now is to go off coffee again and the temptation and the mental baatter of it, but this is my 3rd or 4th time in the last 2 yrs so i'm some what familiar with the process.

I am looking forward to it because without coffee i was more inclined to go for a walk in mornings - but when there is coffee i felt so good about reading and learning as it puts me in the zone.

But the feeling of being in the zone only lasts for a little while, then the crash and craving for more comes.

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Another confession I was trying to escape from having to share But i'm going to.

The past 2 weeks I felt inspired to smoke organic tobacco as a means of grounding myself, did it on sat/sunday and then last sunday, and then I got sick on wed, so i throw the rest of the pack in the garbage.

Also i was lead to Wim Huf Method again - and started to seee his video by Brian Ross on Londongreal.tv and I started to do his daily breathing again, Feeling so thankful to be re-introduced to it.

Intention is to do 3 sets of 30 deep breaths and spend 3minutes under cold shower as soon as i am fully recovered.

 

Felt like sharing this here as I am about to start a 21 day Wim huff challenge again to strengthen immune and connect to purpose.

https://londonreal.tv/wim-hof/

 

On the subject of coffee. Have you tried chicory root powder as an alternative. It tastes just like coffee and you get all the health benefits associated with it like gut health.

 

It's so tough when I go out for a run to burn off some sexual tension and everywhere you go there's scantily clad Yoga Pant wearing females everywhere. Hard to keep focus and not look. Lol

 

I find it interesting that you both have mentioned that eating healthy and exercise helps you. This is interesting for me because I've just learned a little more about dopamine, that it is in the body and many things can create it, like good eating, exercise healthy habits. Also that the drug cocaine causes large amounts of dopamine to be created in the body (I think).

I need to research more but I'm thinking that trying to maximize dopamine in healthy ways (not P, PMO or drugs) would be a good thing to learn about.

Here's the source info I've found recently

 

Hi guys, I can only agree to what is observed in the last posts. It's like PM addiction is not a separate problem, but is related to the lifestyle. I stopped drinking coffee, because I found out it raises my blood pressure dramatically and makes me very nervous. I also try to eat as few sugar as possible, since it also makes me feel anxious. Exercice also can help, I found this app
https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=sixpack.sixpackabs.absworkout&hl=en_US&gl=US
https://apps.apple.com/us/app/six-pack-in-30-days-6-pack/id1338655056
to be very helpful, because one does not need to go to gym or something and it takes only a couple of minutes per day, but it makes me feel more awake.
Trying to spend as few time in internet as possible, since I'm also internet addict and I'm working on it.
Whenever I have free time, I try to go to the park, so I can connect with nature.
For now I think those things really help me also with my PM challenge, since I try to concentrate on positive changes and spending my free time in nature instead of trying to resist the urge.
Hope you're doing fine=)

 

I just wanted to share this quick informational dopamine video. It discloses that the info might not be valid but I thought it was a good visualization to compare the pleasurable levels of different things and just get some ideas.



I'm no expert but I'm thinking/hoping that learning to maintain dopamine levels in healthy ways could be a valuable tool in quitting PMO/binging and recovery. I'm thinking that building up dopamine in healthy ways and avoiding things that deplete dopamine could help because it's like PMO and binging is a quick way to get massive amounts of dopamine when we are low.

I'm wrote more about this in my journal here ...
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/2021-nofap-journal.304210/page-3#post-3031044

 

Such a great post man! I really enjoyed seeing the display of the dompanin units lol

Female orgasim is almost twice as much as male orgasim, that is crazy.

 

I have been thinking about this for sometime, and yesterday I took a full day of silence and contemplation, and today I feel this is the right thing to do.

After 1 year and 215 days I am going to end my initial commitment of no PMO.
Now I am switching over the next 66 days to a new commitment,
Which is no ejaculation. But i will explore my sexuality through masterbation and channel it to sharing myself on social media.

I am deeply grateful for the ability and the grace that empowered me to come this far, and I feel totally transformed as a man, and how i relate to women.

I feel at this time, as a knife that gets too sharp it becomes dull, I am now ready to resume back to the 'normal world' and allow sexual energy into my life - and I like to be able to channel energy within my body through masterbation.

The next 66 days I am going to focus on channeling my energy into creating lots of content on social media and creative expressions and attracting a new partner.

 

So I just finished watching porn for 45 minutes after 1 year and 215 days. No release just some peaking and masterbation.

Took a cold shower and did breath work and stopped, it was a sad because i realized there is no pleasure in this activity and now i'm more than ever inspired to attract a partner to be with instead of this.

reseted counter

 

Are you okay? I’m concerned this is such a different path for you now and such a quick change to make. You have done so much inspiring work.

 

@RightEffort Are you allowing yourself to watch porn as part of this new experiment or did you just slip up? What happened if you don't mind me asking.

Also, why this experiment? Are you trying to achieve non-ejaculatory orgasm through solo-practice (in the Taoist sense)?

 

I would say it was a conscious choice but may be that is my addiction brain justifying it

Who knows, but the fact is overal, I wasn't intoxicated nor emotionally unsettled, I made this choice form a conscious presence, and I feel perhaps it had its values.

I still am committed to living with self restrained, I just felt after 1.7 yrs I was becoming so disconnected from my own sexuality, It was more of an attempt to put more energy into sexuality.

 

I'm good bro no need to be concerned, Just sharing my authentic journey with you guys.

Also I think a real inspiration is someone who is honest with himself and to genuinely exploring his humanity.

I find that this nofap thing can be tricky, at some point there is an ego that gets developed on being the #1 guy who is going for the loggest, and it can actaully have a negative impression cause the purity of the purpose is now mixed with being #1.

It is normal to be a human - we come hard wired with this impulse in us.

Today is the 2nd day i watched porn - but this time for 10minutes, and closed it, unlike yesterday this time i felt bored must sooner and felt the emptiness of it again, now moving forward i am totally dedicated again only practice solo masterbation as an exercise,

I may create a new journal to document my observations and discoveries, and how to prepare for a sexual life which is based on retention and transmutation.