The Lord of the Rings Challenge

I find myself desensitized to cold showers too, but for me, I cannot take hot showers anymore, it is too uncomfortable. The cold feels uncomfortable and yet paradoxically, it is comforting and I feel so much more relaxed after a cold shower than I do after a hot shower. I actually have to keep turning down the temperature because my body quickly acclimates, but in the end, I leave relaxed and ready to start the day.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Checking in friends

Restarted the 30 day challenge with Freedom Fight to help with studying the addiction again. Today's lesson references Romans 7:18-25

 

Day 1 check in

So far: prayer, meditation, walk, healthy lunch, confession, work (still too lazy, brain-fogged, and unfocused, but it is getting better).

Thought for today: I do not have to be out of shape, depressed, or unmotivated. I do not have to wallow in laziness. I can take control of my life.

 

Checking in early..

It's like the gods of old heard me yesterday and decided to punish me today. I've just been plagued all day with erotic images and urges. It's been terrible. I've sensed my irritability rise as well. Whether from lack of PMO or sleep I don't know. I've used the panic button a few times and it actually helped.

I just got to make it another 5 hours and I can sleep. I'll let you guys know how I do.

 

Yes i did that too and the result was irritability i feeled like Boromir

If you feel with a big urge ,deeps breath as we say here, that helps really.

 

Seeing posts of long streak holders who recently relapsed and none has been able to get back up. Sad. Please, never relapse. No days off

 

332 days

 

Day 122

 

Looking forward to seeing you when you come back friend. Just a bit of my own experience, being away from this site only works when you do not have access to P (for me it was when I went on vacation without my laptop and had a P blocker on my phone). Be safe and we will be here once you come back

 

Day 28,

Feeling good and staying active. Keeping my guard up and happy to have my desktop computer in a public workspace, rather than my room for the time being.

Edit: Did peek a little going to reset to 0. No progress lost, but going to stay honest to myself

Best wishes Fellowship

 

Day 191. Pushing ahead. My urges have subsided to an extent. Staying diligent

 

Day 19 officially

Don't worry if I do not post for a few days, I will be on vacation and trying to not use my devices for anything (as internet access is spotty where I am going). As such I will post back on here at least by Tuesday if not sooner.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

20
My current state is very unstable.

 

Day 47.

 

16 days. Running + bodyweight exercises in the morning, some walking in the afternoon, and hung out with friends in the evening. Almost no urges.

 

Day 10, double digits. Only 90 days left to triple digits
Keep it up everybody, we're doing alright

 

Day 115 no PMO. Didn’t sleep much last night. Big day at work today so I’m feeling a little anxious.

 

Me too -stayed at bed for 8 hours but slept probably for 3-4. Don't be anxious, for it's a state of mind where it dwells on non existing fears. Stay in the present moment!

 

338 days dwarf king
413 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 376