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I give up

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Deleted Account, Jun 17, 2021.

  1. It's too much for me, all this anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts. This questioning about sexuality it's been killing me inside for months and I can't stand it. I got even to a therapist, but it didn't work. I've tried to change something, but I just can't. After all, I'm just a failure and a loser. That's what I was all my life and that's what I will be for the rest of it.

    I was just too weak and stupid to believe that I could change something. I can't even believe that I write this here, but at least here I would not be judged and made fun of.

    Good luck everyone and I hope you all get better. Thank you for your support!
     
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  2. So what was your best streak? Your best streak without a single second of porn or porn-substitutes?
     
  3. It doesn't matter at all right now. I really don't care anymore.
     
  4. thisIsthelastDay

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    What happened bro? We all are going through this.
     
  5. Sean Edie

    Sean Edie Fapstronaut

    I've fallen more than I can count and fallen with such discussting content. Keep trying and you'll eventually get there
     
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  6. Exit To Freedom

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    You have to have had some accomplishments in your life, even small ones or nice things you did for people. Anything - reflect on the good inside of you, we all have it. The only thing holding you back now is this stinking addiction - if that was out of your way, how would you feel? For me, I know when I relapse that afterwards I turn into a very angry disgusted person, I hate myself and I hate people and just want to get them out of my sight. So much shame. It's hard, keep coming here every day to learn more and make yourself do it. You are not worthless, without these chains you could be free of what your feeling - it will take work and commitment and you may fail at times but don't give up. There has got to be a way out if we keep pushing despite all the urges and temptations. They will always be there but we must find a way to leave them behind. You are ok, like so many here you just need to be free of this need to sexualize everything.
     
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  7. last chance

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    As long as you fight you are not a loser. This stuff is the devil. We all know this addiction. But don't give up!
     
  8. PrinceDaniel

    PrinceDaniel Fapstronaut

    Dude. We can fix this. I promise you.
     
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  9. Nagos

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    Don't give up. You can do it. But not by just trying to abstain from PMO. You have to fight the deeper problem, wich is not taking responsibility for your life. I know it's too much to take back control of your life all at once but you can do it step by step. As you focus on the life you want to life instead of the life you don't want to live, you're manifesting the good. Although you may fall, your building this new structures in your brain. Everytime you withstand the urge to procrastinate (not taking responsibility for your life) or PMO you're gaining back some control. You have to learn to live in responsibility step by step. There's an app called "time tune" wich allows you to program your days and set notifications for each of your daily events. This will help you to sustain order while you're flat. Eat healthy, do sports, do daily walks outside, meditate or pray and practice breath work, make some minutes of reading your daily habit, do cold showers. Make little improvements every day. Don't give up. You can do it.
     
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  10. Nagos

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    Don't give up. You can do it. But not by just trying to abstain from PMO. You have to fight the deeper problem, wich is not taking responsibility for your life. I know it's too much to take back control of your life all at once but you can do it step by step. As you focus on the life you want to life instead of the life you don't want to live, you're manifesting the good. Although you may fall, your building this new structures in your brain. Everytime you withstand the urge to procrastinate (not taking responsibility for your life) or PMO you're gaining back some control. You have to learn to live in responsibility step by step. There's an app called "time tune" wich allows you to program your days and set notifications for each of your daily events. This will help you to sustain order while you're flat. Eat healthy, do sports, do daily walks outside, meditate or pray and practice breath work, make some minutes of reading your daily habit, do cold showers. Make little improvements every day. Don't give up. You can do it.
     
  11. levya

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    Dude, i've been through exactly the same things. If you wanna talk about it, feel free to write me. I will not patronize and try to advise. Even about fatal diseases patients have right to give up the treatment. So i respect if you give up. You are not the only one. Don't let it to make you feel bad and anxious. Never and ever let suicidal thoughts to surround you. Maybe you just need time to have that desire to quit PMO and figure things out.
     
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  12. DeeJ4y

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    I think everyone goes trough a similar phase at some point, this takes a long time to get rid of. It takes a lot of energy. Try to figure out why you watch it, journaling helps. Occupy your time with productive activities like cooking, going for walks, exercise or learning a new skill. They might feel annoying at first since your brain is used to the instant fix of dopamine, but it gets better with time. Also listening to an audiobook from audible called your brain on porn helps to understand and fight this addiction, you can sign up for free trial and get it for free.


    Marathon runners encounter a wall too, feeling of quitting but after they decide to keep going it gets better. Make a list of things that are positive of nofap and what is negatives of pmo. Read them until you realize how irrational pmo is. I do not know what methods you have tried but I am listing some that have helped me and others. If you are already doing all these things - go easy on your self. This is difficult, we all relapse from time to time. But with every streak and every day without pmo we get just a little better and learn to battle this addiction. Every day is a victory, just focus on not relapsing today, do not worry about the future. Everyone can go one day without pmo. Then tomorrow when you have rested do it again. Do not think that it is going to be a certain amount of days of struggle, just make today enjoyable for you by nice activities etc.


    Also deleting every triggering content from you social media/ internet is a must. Journaling helps here a lot since you learn why you relapsed and from there you can erase the bad content. Also accountability partners can help you out.


    Hopefully you read this this far, sorry for the long post. I hope that you still continue even though it is hard. God bless you.
     
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  13. After long walks alone and a deep discussion with one of my siblings I calmed myself down. To be honest, 2 days ago I was close to attempting suicide again, but one call from my mother changed my thoughts in that moment.

    I still feel like shit, depressive and down, but at least now I have someone to talk in real life about this and it feels good to reveal your problems to somebody.

    Thanks for the messages! I appreciate.
     
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  14. PrinceDaniel

    PrinceDaniel Fapstronaut

    I am glad you are still with us. Remember that you are not alone. Feel free to contact me whenever you need.
     
  15. Tell yourself a different story about your life.
     

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