The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 123

 

Day 116 no PMO. I got l on this site (nofap) last night to try to fill my brain with good distraction but instead came across a post that actually was very triggering for me. The post had names of several P websites that I never knew existed as well as descriptions of what could be found there. It was masked as an honest post but I couldn’t help but wonder if it was someone trying to bait us into checking out those sites. I didn’t go to any of the sites but I did decide I had to get away from this site for the evening before something bad happened. Keep your guard up boys… temptation is EVERYWHERE!

 

339 days dwarf king
414 days no PMO, semen retention

 

We're 90/90 boys we can do this

 

Day 5

 

day 37
I feel a difference in my self doing nofap , i feel much better , more strong mentally talking.
I feel more confident too , maybe cause i focus now in others activities(exercise, studies) and not on fake pixels.
PMO is a waste of time and potencial

 

so, yesterday was interesting.

I found that I was actually more awake even though I had gotten less sleep the night before. I also noticed my ability to focus on my studies wasn't very good either from the previous days. Maybe conjecture but I think this is all from rebooting the brain. I lost some focus when I fapped but paradoxically felt more awake.

I failed again yesterday evening. Not as bad as the day before (just 2 times), which is good. But man. It's a little disheartening.

The lie (and genuine concern) is that I need to fap in order to stay focused in school. If I just fapped I wouldn't be distracted as I am being plagued with thoughts of porn.

And! because I'm doing the dopamine detox congruently. I have nothing to distract myself from but study. I think I need to change the parameters of my dopamine detox to allow for music.

Thanks for being a great community guys. Today, I become an ORC!!!

 

I got sick these days and for the first time I forgot the last time I fapped. I entered the forum to see my medal and today I did a week. I'm happy now, I'm even going to meditate.

 

Stay strong bro, re-evalute and come back stronger! Just don't give up.

 

Perhaps you need to change your approach. 2 times in a day is quite a lot my friend, you're draining your body. Try to write down in a journal what culminated to your relapse, write down a failsafe for that particular situation. Also, if you haven't already, install porn blockers on all your devices. Coldturkey is what I use. Give the password to a trusted friend/family member.

 

Checking in fellowship friends!

Day 148 free of MO, day 220 free of porn.

It's really quite an interesting journey, one night I sleep well the next I don't haha. But it's fine, I'm the one who made this mess for myself, the suffering is worth it and required to get out of it.

 

Day 25 no P
Day 20 no MO

10 more days until I am an elf again for the second time every since joining this challenge.

Still on vacation. Had a wet dream last night, though in the dream, I was not viewing P or MO'ing, and that was so cool because it means that my body and brain and starting to dissociate sexual urges from P and MO, and that is so wonderful.

best,
Mathman1994

 

Friday check in

Today so far I've prayed, taken a cold shower, eaten healthy, gone on a walk, done some writing.

Still ahead: meditation, some reading.

Feeling kind of tired, but my spirits are good. I'm better than where I was on Monday.

 

another day-short meditation(15 minutes),cold shower, barbells-dumbells workout, got little kettlebell and done some exercises with it, few walks and some reading from the internet ...and no caffeine day 2 plus I noticed myself mostly on vegetarian diet lately.

 

Day 19

 

Downloaded audiobook of Your Brain on Porn. Determined to reboot.

 

334 days

 

Good night, brothers!

One week and I'm back on track! Feeling good, spent some time in the countryside and thats renewing. Started to learn new things on the guitar. Have you ever heard of milongas? It's a musical genre of the region of Uruguay, Argentina and south of Brazil, were I live. It's rich in harmony and rithms.

Felling also kinda weird, since I'm completing one week and the urges are much weaker than the expected.

 

Day 3 complete!

Someone else mentioned that temptation is everywhere, and I'll be darned if that ain't the truth. The past couple days I've noticed the name of a certain pornstar cropping up in the news. She's doing good work, speaking out against the evils of the porn industry and trying to turn her life around. Huge respect for that, which makes it all the more shameful that even seeing the name brought on some urges. Remember that we're not just helping ourselves by doing NoFap. The less porn there is in the world, the better.

St. Gianna Molla, pray for us!