There is this Porn movie...

I'm sorry.
Do you still have it on your devices?

 

I always had favourites. I have a thing about sound so I recorded the sound of one and listened to it on headphones. I think it has to do with the way sex joins you to a partner and the more you are with them it becomes closer to you. The hard part is how it pops into your head when you're not thinking so you need to rewire your brain. Try to keep your mind active by listening to music or podcasts. The last few days I've had things drop into my head but I distracted myself and messaged my accountability partner. It is possible but it needs work

 

Focus on healing

 

I think many of us had their favourites. If its certain vids, girls or sites doesn't matter. It gives a feeling of security, because you know what to expect, something that you can "rely on". To only have one vid at all for such a long time, maybe is extreme, but still nothing that is not relateable or explainable. Maybe it's a symptom for a deeper problem. Do you struggle with new things/activities also in other parts of your life? Do you wish yourself back to the time, when you started to enjoy this clip?

 

Beware my friends!
As time goes on you will need ever increasing dosages of stimulation. This will be necessary to achieve orgasm. Your previous masturbatory fodder will prove insufficient. My own situation will prove instructive. I never had any interest in lesbian porn. But as my addiction increased I found myself seeking it out. I would then fap to it relentlessly. Aggressive and violent sex scenes had the same effect on me.

As my reliance on such stimulus, in order to ejaculate, increased so did my shame. The worst lies are the ones we tell ourselves. I always felt myself superior to sex/ porn addicts. I never thought I would become ensnared in such vile activity. What a shock I was in for! I thank Nofap everyday for the strength my fellow fapstronauts give me.

Good luck comrades!

 

Yeah, this has happened to me a couple of times and is usually the main reason I relapse. I think it has to do with nostalgia since some of them I found in my early teen years kind of like music I listen to over and over again.

 

let it go man

ask yourself did it really matter to your life ?

 

This is why I think just abstinence for a certain period of time is not enough. When I was growing up the only thing I saw was a low res, black and white clip of a penis thrusting inside a vagina. Basically a GIF. That's it. Clearly the stimulation is more sophisticated today, but a lot of people seem to think just counting days is enough. It's a start, but I figure if I had little exposure compared to the younger guys now and I'm doing MORE than just counting days... I don't know how well that's going to work with you guys when you have more to deal with.