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I don't know if it is possible anymore...

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by 0r0z5, Jun 28, 2021.

  1. 0r0z5

    0r0z5 New Fapstronaut

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    I reached the next level of addiction that probably no one aware of or have seen before.
    I’m a 22 years old student, geek dude, and data hoarder. I have thousands of terabytes of digital organized content (you heard it right). I’m not here to brag, I achieved that stupid epeen already. I found out that the most thing I’m personally consuming from my *epic* collection is porn. My porn collection alone is around 500TB, each pornstar I have a filmography of her or a pack that is just 1-2 months outdated. For each porn company, I have a siterip of them in SD, HD, & 4K. Now I even have drives just for OF siterips of public figures girls or even girls that no one heard about them.

    Why you are saying this and what you are here for?
    Well, I’ve personally reached a point that I’m not sure anymore if I can get a recovery for my brain. I wish, but I don’t know what kind of rabbit hole I’m in at the moment. I feel that I have the ability and desire to throw everything I did and move on tho. But thinking about the effort, time, and money I put into this "hobby" is strange.

    I’m hoping that I will find my way out of this rabbit hole soon and sort it out, wish me luck please and give me any advice that may help to speed up the process.
     
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  2. 野良西木

    野良西木 Fapstronaut

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    Hi buddy, don't just give up on hope yet, it is possible and I am 100% sure that you'll heal from this!

    However, I don't think that there's any magic pills that makes you heal faster, but mindset plays an important role in quitting this addiction, the book by Allen Carr is really good and will give you a great mindset to start your nofap journey.

    All the best and good luck on your nofap journey. (Also, you might want to delete all your porn, block any access to porn will help immensely.)
     
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  3. Nah, that's not impressive. I've seen worse. As addicts, we have a tendency to think that no one has ever fallen down as low as we have. That's a common bias, so don't worry about it.

    Anyway, I don't see ANY reason for you to give up. Delete your 500TB of porn or just throw those discs away. That's a good beginning to stop your addiction.

    Then, use everything we have on our site. There's plenty to learn about your addiction and the fact that you're not alone with your problems.

    You're about the same age I woke up to the horrid reality of my addiction, so I can relate to your feelings. First steps suck, but when you dedicete yourself, you win.

    Cheers!
     
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  4. GotCaught

    GotCaught Fapstronaut

    The most no of days porn addiction recovery would take is 90, but only if you are willing so complete it in a go and don't increase the number from 90 to till death
     
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  5. Yep, addictions aren't treated like OCD. You must cut yourself away entirely from its sources, not step by step.
     
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  6. ElderStatesman

    ElderStatesman Fapstronaut

    Maybe you're not more seriously addicted than many of us here. It's possible your incredible collection building is not addiction in itself but some kind of hoarding obsession that has sprung from your addiction. It doesn't have to mean that your actual addiction is any more powerful than it is for many others.

    But you're going nowhere until you dump the hoard. That likely means smash the drives. Deleting files piecemeal will just get you off. Doing complete wipes will save the drives, but the cost of tossing them out may be worth it for the sense of accomplishment and finality it could give you. And destroying them even more so. (Actually, it might not really cost you anything. Without the need to squirrel away ridiculous terabytes of porn, how much storage space will you need anyway?)

    Next, set a day counter. Until you take these basic steps, you may not really be in the game. Bear in mind, I'm no expert at much besides failure, but I like to weigh in anyway.

    Good luck.
     
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  7. InnerMan

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    My shit collection is astounding. Down here in aisle A, I have shit from world's birds including Penguin shit. Aisle B, all the different shades and sizes of reptile shit. Aisle 3 is exclusively reserved for dog shit. I have the biggest shit collection in the world. My dilemma is that I've spent years of my life collecting shit and can't bring myself to get rid of it.

    Dude, flush your shit down the toilet.

    Good luck!!!
     
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  8. Rojas202

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    Delete your 500TB of porn and then sell the dics.
     
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  9. D_rax

    D_rax Distinguished Fapstronaut

    Rosa knows what's best:

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    You can be free from it, if you want.
     
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  10. RiverBlue

    RiverBlue Fapstronaut

    You're suffering from the "sunk cost fallacy." - the belief that all the time and effort you've previously sunk into your collection hobby should have an impact on what you do in the future. Rational economic theory says you should consider only future (prospective) costs, not retrospective costs, in figuring out what to do next. Sunk costs should have zero consideration.

    So, rationally, you shouldn't be focusing at all on your "collection." Rationally you should toss it and the disk and whatever, and not regret it. It has no value in charting your future self.

    More importantly, what you've done in the past doesn't create any drag on what you can do in the future. You say you're in a hole, but you're not really. You are already out of the hole. You don't have to climb. You can just move forward. Just drop all the baggage from the past -- your "collection," your regret over time wasted or missed opportunities. Just look forward. Don't look back. That's what a rational decisionmaker should do.

    Now, having said that, I admit there is an emotional element I'm ignoring. We all have that. That's something you have to overcome. But reframing the decision and thinking rationally can make that easier.
     
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