The Lord of the Rings Challenge

27 days. Tired from the weekend I had but PMO-wise everything seems very stable right now.

 

Reached Day 13 but like a fool I masturbated just now, back to Mount Doom I go

 

Day 5

Things are hard but getting better. Holy cow I want to be clean of porn.

Lately other than the usual stuff on nofap like this thread and talking to an AP I started writing on the subforum for “rebooting in a relationship” where there are many women that are SO to people going through noFap. And writing there is so hard.

Talking and hearing the women perspective both as SO and just as women is truly shocking. But if someone is in a relationship and feel strong enough, I really encourage going there, it’s an eye opener.

But understanding the harm porn and the sexual pressure I’ve put on my girlfriend as result of the porn addiction kind of making me sick and ashamed of myself. But I’m just really trying to focus on channeling this energy into bettering my self and not just spiraling into a porn and shame cycle.

if it make you feel better, I think you're a rock star for making it to 20 days. I'm still trying to get to 14 days for the first time. but I'm not giving up.

 

To me this is the opposite of a relapse. Sounds like you handled it well.

 

Day 126 no PMO - went on a date with my wife tonight. Had some good conversation. Didn’t try anything sexual for fear that I would not be able to perform. I’m worried that I have wrecked my sex life forever.

 

Oh I am so in. White Wizard status, I'm getting that.

Now if only I could change my sig.

 

Day 11

 

Day 14! I'm hitting a wall in this moment, but getting through this might have some unbelievable results!
I shall stay strong for you my brothers!

 

You can do it. WE can do it. A raise of the glass for all on the path.

 

Checking in --->
After 18 days I fell for PMO.

but this cannot stop me . I made good progress and I will keep fighting , this is a battle that is only over when I take my last breath or I break this addiction.
by the way any advices or tips to prevent binge?
last time I suffered heavily by binging.

 

Study about reboot, stay in good company, meditate, exercise, eat well and sleep well! Those are the tips to follow.(all of them as an essentials package)

 

day 47
I called the days 56 , 57 and forward "the safe zone", cause in those days my brain start to erase any image about pmo.
This third attempt i notice this "safe zone "are on days 46, 47 and forward, more soon than before.
Maybe the less exposition of pmo this time, helped to this positive change.

 

Check in day 4.

 

Day 2

I am making progress. Accomplished all of my goals yesterday (other than getting up early). I am on track to accomplish my goals today too. Other that of course getting up with my alarm. I went to bed at 9:30PM and got out of bed at 8:15AM. Slept almost 12 hours which is not ideal. I am working now, though taking some time to post on here. I did not binge after Friday's relapse and the chaser effect seems to be subsiding. I am still struggling with with getting up when my alarm goes off as I said, and it is not like I am not getting enough sleep. If I got up with my alarm, I would have about 9-9.5 hours of sleep which is about what my body needs. However, I am sleeping more than that. How do I reset my sleep schedule to get a healthy amount of sleep without sleeping around 11 hours because if I get to bed at midnight, I sleep 11 hours. In fact I sleep about 11 hours a night on average. but that is about half the day in sleep, and I would rather have about 9 hours of sleep at night and have a productive morning before work at 8:30AM.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

First day at the gym went great. Had a fun time and it felt really good exercising again.
I am probably going to feel the burn a lot more tomorrow, but that's part of the process.
Tomorrow another day at the gym, looking forward to it.

Have a great day everyone!
Much love.

 

@Aristophanes01 You almost did it the right way. You just have to type the '@' with the name of the person behind it. @RiseToGreatness wasn't tagged correctly in your post, because you used a space between each word of his name, you can just type it as one word basically.
Also, after you type the @-symbol and the first letters of someone's name, the names with those letters will be suggested automatically and you can choose who you want to tag in a post.
Hope this helps.

 

Day 30, trod on!

30 days The Elven town of Rivendell greets your arrival. A Council of representants explains the path to Mordor in detail. You´re an Elf now.

 

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