Problems with older lady

Ive been going out with this older lady. We’ve kissed for hours on second date and third date we sort had sex but I couldn’t get hard, it was night time and I was feeling down cause my dog died that same day hours before this and i didn't sleep well. She even said "all talk and no action" like who the fuck says that and this has never happened to her.

She is too demanding, she has all these needs and expectations of how she likes to be pleased, has told me that I can’t handle her.

Today we went to a bar I took a boner pill this time for nothing, she said not today, that last time was a disaster, let's take it slow until the time is right. I assumed we were gonna try again at her place. I was getting hard while kissing her, I say we should go, and says not today, and literally kills my erection and sexual desire.

We keep kissing for an hour, she likes my kissing, but I feel less and less the more we kiss, now she wants to go to the movies next time. I went home to masturbate

She has all these needs and expectations. She also works a federal job, I think DEA or something, so she is those type who are dominant and want things her way. Now she wants to wait and keep hanging out basically stringing me along until she decides is time to try again or dump me

I texted her yesterday that we should try again at her place that i wasn't feeling well last time I have lower energy cause of a heart defect and I could do better earlier time of day basically asking to be understanding and she didnt give a fuck about what i said and just said to meet at a bar we met before.

Im losing attraction already when I kiss her i don't feel much anymore she is not ugly but her attitude kills any arousal for me I regret meeting her now sure I finally got a one night stand after years of nothing but still I was too desperate and now i don't even know why i still see her.

I know she likes the way look and kiss cause she always mentions it and at least doesn’t flake on me.

What's the point of waiting till the time is right, she already said i will never satisfy her, that wont be able to handle her etc so even if i do get an erection cause blue pill and have sex, she'll be disappointed too

and now the only reason i want to fuck her is to prove her wrong, but is not worth it now, i dont care as much and my attraction for her has reduced, i dont feel the same when kissing her

 

not worth it after everything she said to me bruh even if i do fuck her shell probably be dissatisfied lol not to mention im already losing attraction for her and in a way im resenting her now

if she wanted to have sex could have done yesterday when i took a boner pill i was good i told her i felt good and this time ill do better and she didn’t want to and she wants to wait for the right time just an excuse to string me along

i just dont feel it anymore and i resent her now for everything she said to me yesterday

 

What a moron

it doesn’t matter i wont text her anymore she aint anything special anyway

 

thats what i was planning to do i never planned to date just wanted sex a few times but i dont know i was having anxiety and my dog died that day, i was also doing this nofap nonsense for weeks and my penis and libido died and i think that played a big role there cause even before this encounter the days before it my libido was dead and i kinda had a feeling i was going to have issues because of it

Either way next time ill use the boner pills i have now i used it this saturday and it worked great we could have had sex but her attitude ruined it for me saying no today

i kinda resent her now so makes no sense to keep seeing with the hopes to fuck her one time on the boner pill? For what as revenge? Nahh i dont care anymore and she wasn’t even attractive just cute and she is old

im sure she wont text after i ghost her lol which means she never gave a shit about me and was only using me for her pleasure