Withdrawals

Not really any that haven’t already been discussed before. Most of my withdrawals at this point tend to be purely mental. However I do still experience physical withdrawals very intensely during the beginning stages of a streak. Just something that I’ve learned I have to power through, though that’s easer said than done.

 

Been on and off the forums due to general toxicity I have noticed with some users, in addition to other users that I was friendly with having left indefinitely or deleted their profiles, but I still check back in from time to time. Been on and off streaks as well. Every relapse sets me back, and I certainly haven’t been on a long enough streak to properly heal and get to where I ultimately want/need to be. But I have definitely made progress. Looking back, I used to be totally consumed by porn and would fap in excess of five or six times a day. Now even during a relapse I can’t even manage to do it that many times in a week. I find PMO exhausting and don’t know how I ever spent so much time doing it, or where I found the energy to do it so excessively. I’ve since found far more time to do the things that are beneficial, productive, and that I am passionate about and enjoy. So while I’m definitely not healed—admittedly not even close—the progress gives me high hopes for the future.