I’m tired just wanna die

Honestly, all you can do is keep working hard (or harder) until you eventually accomplish your goals - do whatever it takes. My father was an illegal immigrant from Italy with only some pocket money who built his way up to success. He started working at scummy minimal wage jobs, living in shared accommodations with over 5 people and would often steal food or even eat from the trash sometimes. Now he has a high paying job (engineer), owns a house and has a family and takes us out to do shit nearly every weekend.

 

I know how you feel my friend, I've been there I felt what you feel but you don't know what's gonna happen in the future you are just making decisions with your current knowledge which is not valid. just hang in there body and keep on moving. I know you tired of life but that's all we got we can't take that from ourselves. I hope I've helped you.

 

Sorry you’re suffering man, but you’re victimizing yourself. You’re a fucking man. Go make an opportunity. Find an entry level job and work your way up. Gain control by mastering your sleep schedule. Do one hard thing every day. Find someone you’re able to help and help them. This is your life, and you get to control the narrative. Stay strong, don’t take the easy way out. It gets better.

 

A lot of people have been in that situation, think about it for a second, even a lot worse. It is one of the worst feelings that can exist, I have felt them too. Killing yourself won't solve anything. Even if you are a religious person and believe in God, we cannot be sure what there is after death, what if it is worse than what you are living right now? Get up, take advantage of the small opportunities that life can give you, get better every day in what you can, you never know what may happen in the future, stop thinking so much (I realized that when you are depressed your head does not stop having negative thoughts 24/7)
Calm your mind and distract yourself in other things. And never give up. Change your switch to life and where you see problems look at opportunities. Control your mind and calm it, which is one of the most powerful instruments but works best when it is still.

 

I've suffered with depression and negative thoughts for years. If you can't make yourself happy talk to your doctor and get some therapy or tablets or a mixture of both. Porn does push depression harder but as you give up it gets better. Ask God to give you strength and cling to Him in the darkest times and trust He does want you to stay alive

 

Hello,

So sorry to here you are having such a rough time. But don't give up. There is a simple way to create some distance between yourself and your feelings. From your early childhood to now there is something you call "I". Something that hasn't changed. As the body has changed and you've grown up- it remained the same. As your mind changed and you learned how to walk and to read and write- it remained the same. This "I" doesn't have any problems. It has been with you through all the joys and sorrows of life. Find this "I" and rest in it. It has no problems- it is not affected by your fetishes, your fears, your depression, your regrets or any of that. It knows that all that has nothing to do with what it essentially is. Just inquire into your own experience- what am I? Am I the body? No. Am I the breath? No. Am I the mind with all its depression and trauma? No. Ask yourself these questions and you will come to that place that is unaffected by all these problems.

Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing both the ups and downs during the reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings you are having won’t last forever. It will get better with time, if you are patient and wait.

In the meantime, please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, StopSuicide maintains a list of online instant messaging and chat suicide prevention resources.

You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!

 

Same bro but be aware that there are people really useless like me. I'm certain that you are worth it and will succeed !
Not me

 

Brother, it may seem strong than you, but God is stronger than it. One of the biggest issues that I have is being able to put God first. When you put God first, the rest will open up;but it will take time. Sometimes I think I can do it with my own strength, but then I fail or fall into temptation. So , brother, it is tough but please give God your attention and he will help your out of this

 

Suicide is not the right option, God does not approve it either. Focus on your wellbeing not girls. God bless you man, stay strong!

 

Don’t.

Crisis Text Line Text HOME to 741741
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255

 

Don't give up, wait for better times - they always come - if you can't - then please ask for professional help - there are medications, treatments that will help you feel better.

 

read 'the boy crisis' i gurantee you that it'll make you understand most of your problems

 

What I do is ask questions. Feel free not to answer them or just ask me to shut up!

Are you working at all? What is poverty to you?

What's stressing you?

Opportunities of what?

Rejected by? Women or everybody?

One last thing: You are 20. I'm 58. I wish I was 20 again with all of your problems and even more. Don't waste your life over things that can be fixed. Please!

 

1. How was your academic performance when in school?
2. Depending on 1 above, there are many colleges in developed countries that offer scholarships to students with a decent academic performance. There programs also that do the same thing. (I'll do some research on what is available in Dominican Republic and come back to you).
3. You are going to have these opportunities but don't expect them to come for free. It requires hard work from you. Are you ready to do it?
4. Don't give me the "throw the towel in" shit, man when you are only 20! I'm 58 and I still haven't thrown in the towel!!!!

 

Here are some links:
(Unfortunately I have to be registered for 2 days before I can post links. I'll do that tomorrow)

There are more. The opportunities are there. Now it depends on whether you really want to put an effort into them or not.

 

Don't appreciate the support. Get your ass ready for some hard work!