The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Try to talk yourself through these situations, for there is a reason for everything that happens in our lives and in our world, but since we are so small we don't see the whole picture of why certain things have to happen.
Hope your dog gonna make brother.

 

Day 12 completed, approaching my previous record

 

Yesterday was a very busy tiring day so that I preferred to keep my sleeping time rather than going to accountability with tired sleepy brain, but meditation, cold shower, studies and a lot of pt were done .

 

Day 13. Almost a hobbit now.

 

Day 23

 

39 days.

I spent almost the whole day at a fun get together with future co-workers at a new job I will start after the summer. Felt a little bit nervous since everybody knew each other except me, but it went well. Socialising seems easier for me when I don't PMO. Was tired when I got home in the evening but still decided to go for a run in the rain to prevent urges. Also did some squats + push-ups.

Oh, and I believe I have now beaten my latest (and longest) streak. I went back in my journal and found that I relapsed on Day 39

 

Checking in for day 23

 

day2

 

Day 138 no PMO.

 

361 days dwarf king
437 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Hey brother, it happened. It's in the past now, as long as you don't binge and get up and move forward. You made that streak before, you'll do so again and beyond that. You have an extra experience in your toolkit. When you have that same feeling, realize that adding PMO to the "everything is going wrong" situation is not going to help any. It'll just make the entire thing even shittier. Those dark days are normal along the journey. I've experienced quite a few, especially in the beginning and I continue to get them here and there. Face the emotion head on, face the darkness and come a stronger person. You got this.

 

Checking in Fellowship friends!

242 days free of porn, 170 days free of MO.

170 days – You entered the Morgul-Road. A “road that glows with an eerie luminescence” running east and west through the Morgul Vale and over the Morgul Pass in western Mordor.


I've stopped listening to guided meditations at night as I go to bed. I have learned meditation techniques and came to the conclusion that I no longer need this as a crutch. I finally decided to keep my phone away from me. I'm keeping it at the complete other side of the room, as opposed to quite literally one arm length from me. I felt as though being dependant on that to sleep was not okay. I also think it started to have a reverse effect on me, disturbing my quality of sleep. I use to sleep effortlessly with no assistance in the past. I finally decided to do so again, the quality of my sleep has improved. It's been about 6 days of this. Also, going to buy an alarm clock so I can just keep my phone off at night. I will keep this up and keep you guys posted if I notice any benefits from this.

Stay strong!

 

some thoughts on why I think porn is bad

The main reason porn is bad is you are mixing a physical activity (sex) with a mental activity(porn)

A woman with emotional burden, a psychological trauma, specially related to sex or romantic love and has this memories constantly in her mind can’t enjoy sex. She’s too much in her mind and sex is done with the body, the moment she starts to have sex she will not enjoy it. Women are more delicate in this than us men.

With porn the same happens, you are mixing a merely physical activity (sex) into a mental enjoyment. Of course you need feelings, love and respect with your partner for making love, but the act itself is a physical activity.

Porn just takes this to the extreme it’s almost like sex goes up to your head completely, that is why your sexuality gets all messed up and you get PIED, weird fetishes and even prefer porn and get more excited with it than real sex.

Regular normal sex in men also has a mental component, in many cases you are thinking “look at this girl she’s so hot” “this feels amazing I’m going to come” “she just had an orgasm I’m so good at this” and so forth. This is not as bad as pornography but still I think loses the essence of what sex has to be.

See it as if you were an Olympic weightlifter at the Olympics, what are you thinking the moment you are making the lift? The answer is nothing you are simply focus on the lift completely your body and mind are simply 100% in the moment.

Tantric sex or non-ejaculatory sex does this very well , in a simplify manner in tantra you are just doing a physical activity while having sex, you are not thinking anything, you’re simply making love, you are not thinking “she’s hot” “ this feels amazing” “ I love her so much” you can do that after sex if you want. You can celebrate your Olympic gold medal after the lift, but not during the lift because if you do you’ll probably fail or get injured if doing so.

In tantra you are just having sex, completely focus in the present moment without judgment or thinking anything. This feels 100 times better than regular sex, gives you tons of energy, balance. it’s even simpler than regular sex. Try it.

Conclusion: sexuality has to be done with one head (penis) because when you start to use the other head (mind) it can get messy; you lose energy, get sexual dysfunctions and fetishes.

 

Good morning, fellas!
Beatiful sunny saturday here. My dog is getting better and he'll survive. We (my family) had those moments of doubt cuz we couldn't know if he was seriously injured inside or not, but it seems that he was just in strong pain and not with some damaged organ. I'm also felling better, woke up very well rested today and gonna enjoy this warm sun that I haven't seen in days.

Good weekend everybody!!!

 

Day 59
I was reading a book about the Administration of the Knowledge and i have the idea , all here we have experience with no PMO , what about put all that knowledge(prevention plans) in one place, every time we have struggles we can consult that thread and search for solution.
Every prevention plan has to put their author yourself down the information, for avoid "copy paste" from others.
What do think?
I saw much messages what has value information and that ends lost with time, if we put on thread especially for that , we can find that easly.
We can call the thread " Knowledge and preventions plans of the Fellowship of the Ring".

And of course everyone can edit anytime their prevention plan, what posted there.

Edit:Haha nevermind we are going to have so much problems with copyright authors in the future, so many reports of copy of our prevention plans , cause always there is someone who doesn't understand.

 

Alright, Boys and Girls!! I'm back!!

I've had a terribly depressing time just relapsing almost every day and just lethargic, it's been rough. So! I was talking to a buddy who's been going through recovery and he used a different program thing than just screentime (which is what I was using). He suggested "covenant eyes" to me. It's an accountability web blocker thing. If you get on any bad websites or something suspicious, your buddy gets notified in a weekly (or daily) email. Even youtube is automatically put on restricted mode and I can't just turn it off (I checked, lol). He's been on it for a long time and says it's the best thing he's used thus far, as the AI that watches what you're doing can identify pictures and other things that might not be blocked or something.

Anyway! I'm back in the game! Feeling hopeful and here's a link if you guys want to check it out!

P.S. Sorry it took so long!

 

Hey, thank you for those kind words, I really appreciate it. Actually, I don't even feel like I've lost it all and started over, more like a fall where the pain is severe but passes quickly I just need to get up, get through some unpleasant moments, and I can wander on and keep up with companions in the journey with the fellowship again. Good luck on your journey! May we all destroy our rings!

"But in the end it's only a passing thing, this shadow; even darkness must pass."
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Lord of the Rings

 

Day 9... I got some flowers to put out on the deck, so I'll go pot those. Gotta prepare for the Shire and all.

 

Day 16. Lots of video games (cheat days), no time for PMO. There were some urges but nothing serious.

 

Day 3
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